I'm Such A Damn Fool!
"I see nothing in your eyes; And the more I see; The less I like; Is it over yet; In my head; I know nothing of your kind; And I won't reveal your evil mind; Is it over yet; I can't win;
So sacrifice yourself; And let me have what's left; I know that I can find; The fire in your eyes; I'm going all the way; Get away; Please;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you;
This will all be over soon; Pour the salt into the open wound; Is it over yet; Let me in;
So sacrifice yourself; And let me have what's left; I know that I can find; The fire in your eyes; I'm going all the way; Get away; Please;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you;
I'm waiting; I'm praying; Realize; Start hating;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you."
Boys can be real jerks, I think I might try the lesbo scene....then again....nevermind.
So I find out the other day that this guy I've been talking to just made it official with another girl. Wonderful. Hope it works out for him this time. Scratch him off the list.
Then, I have come to conclusion that my ex doesn't give a damn that I'm alive and seems to be making an attempt to erase the fact that I exist. So much for being friends. I knew I shouldn't have believed him when he told me that we would be friends and I could call him if I ever needed him and he would stop by and say hi whenever he came down here. It was probably just another one of his empty promises that he only said to make me feel better and never had any intention of keeping...much like many of the things he told me during our relationship. So unless I hear that he wants otherwise, I guess I should start taking the steps to delete him from my life, much like how I feel he is doing to me.
I am starting to heal though. I'm starting to move out of the hurt phase of grief. Although, I'll admit, I still do miss him terribly and I do wish we talked more. But I'm tired of calling and only getting his voicemail and him never returning my calls. That says to me that he doesn't want to talk to me, so I'm taking the hint.
I do feel like a complete fool though. I can't believe that I fell for lie after lie after lie. I trusted him fully. I helped him whenever I could. And I had the rug pulled out from under me and fell on my ass. I also feel like he used me to get what he wanted, and once I stopped and expected him to start giving too, he got rid of me. I may be completely wrong and made wrong interpretations, but this is how I feel at this present time. Call me and discuss it with me, not comment.
I'm probably just irrational because I'm hurt and upset. Who knows at this point.
In other news:
My computer is fixed. Dell sent someone the next day and they replaced my motherboard and power supply. My hard drive is fine. Yay!
A man proposed to his girltoy on our golf course with one of our signs....aww, shoot me.
I leave for Maine in a week. Yay!
Thought of the Day
If you don't pay your exorcist, do you get repossessed?
So sacrifice yourself; And let me have what's left; I know that I can find; The fire in your eyes; I'm going all the way; Get away; Please;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you;
This will all be over soon; Pour the salt into the open wound; Is it over yet; Let me in;
So sacrifice yourself; And let me have what's left; I know that I can find; The fire in your eyes; I'm going all the way; Get away; Please;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you;
I'm waiting; I'm praying; Realize; Start hating;
You take the breath right out of me; You left a hole where my heart should be; You got to fight just to make it through; Cause I will be the death of you."
Boys can be real jerks, I think I might try the lesbo scene....then again....nevermind.
So I find out the other day that this guy I've been talking to just made it official with another girl. Wonderful. Hope it works out for him this time. Scratch him off the list.
Then, I have come to conclusion that my ex doesn't give a damn that I'm alive and seems to be making an attempt to erase the fact that I exist. So much for being friends. I knew I shouldn't have believed him when he told me that we would be friends and I could call him if I ever needed him and he would stop by and say hi whenever he came down here. It was probably just another one of his empty promises that he only said to make me feel better and never had any intention of keeping...much like many of the things he told me during our relationship. So unless I hear that he wants otherwise, I guess I should start taking the steps to delete him from my life, much like how I feel he is doing to me.
I am starting to heal though. I'm starting to move out of the hurt phase of grief. Although, I'll admit, I still do miss him terribly and I do wish we talked more. But I'm tired of calling and only getting his voicemail and him never returning my calls. That says to me that he doesn't want to talk to me, so I'm taking the hint.
I do feel like a complete fool though. I can't believe that I fell for lie after lie after lie. I trusted him fully. I helped him whenever I could. And I had the rug pulled out from under me and fell on my ass. I also feel like he used me to get what he wanted, and once I stopped and expected him to start giving too, he got rid of me. I may be completely wrong and made wrong interpretations, but this is how I feel at this present time. Call me and discuss it with me, not comment.
I'm probably just irrational because I'm hurt and upset. Who knows at this point.
In other news:
My computer is fixed. Dell sent someone the next day and they replaced my motherboard and power supply. My hard drive is fine. Yay!
A man proposed to his girltoy on our golf course with one of our signs....aww, shoot me.
I leave for Maine in a week. Yay!
Thought of the Day
If you don't pay your exorcist, do you get repossessed?