Feb 13, 2009 10:53
I had a dream last night that Mr. Moochick was trying to give me different "little piece(s) of rainbow!" If you don't know the reference well... I'm sorry you had to miss out on such quality entertainment in your 80's childhood...
The night before I had a dream of walking through a field where there were small ponds and many colorful small fish that were singing...
What kind of crack am I snorting before I sleep I wonder...
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Okay so I've never been a great dancer. Trust me - if I had, at any point in my time on this planet, believed that I had the coordination and talent to actually make a career of being a dancer well... then I would not be here right now.
But the fact stands that as a dancer I basically suck.
That doesn't change the fact that I just love dancing and get indescribable joy out of it that no other art form can replace or imitate.
I also think that dancing makes me a better designer. I think that I have more talent in visualizing music with movement because I have taken choreography *(which I'm not great at either because it takes someone who is a good dancer to be a good choreographer... in my opinion) but I can SEE space in relation to drama and music. ( Also I think my spatial awareness training has made me a better driver but that's besides the point...)
So I was appalled and distressed when I went to the gym the other day and tried testing out my alignment, which is what I ALWAYS do in my cool-down stretches. I do everything as if I'm still dancing.
Well my line was completely gone.
And I was pissed.
Because damn it, I would like to do a fucking ronde-de-jambe without looking like a sick Elephant and I still arabesque from time to time.
SO today when I got into the warm-up room and made sure no one was in there or watching, I did full sets of plies in 1st-5th and warmed up all the appropriate muscles and made myself do some high kicks and forced myself back down into some of those stretches (I still do the dance stretches pretty often so it didn't hurt).
And LO AND BEHOLD, because I refused to accept I had lost my line, I suddenly could leap and arabesque again with something that resembles proper alignment.
I do not accept losing all of my basic skills simply because I am redirected in my career.
Frankly, I hope directors like talking to me because I can use terminology in both music and dance. And because I "get" the drama and don't try to make everything in to a "different use of space" and "sculpture" just for the sake of being innovative.
Tell the story tell the story tell the story.
Anyway so YES I would like to still imagine choreography in my head even if I never choreograph. Right now I'm on an O.K. Computer Radiohead kick.
O if only I had discovered more music while I was still dancing..
C'est la vie!
Anyway the point is- if you believe you can do something and set your mind to it, anything is possible.