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I have this horrible habit of spilling my guts to people when they think I hate them. because I cant stand hate, and I dont hate anyone, and I dont want them to hate me. so I say things I probably shouldnt. and I lose it, I give in, Im weak. and thats what gets me. thats what gets me like this I think.
I have to learn to stand up for myself. and things. normally Ill say what I think. then I just give in, and I cant keep doing that, it has to be strong all the way. because Ill only truly lose if I give in, and Im losing a lot more than just an arguement.
This makes no sense Im dumb Im stupid I quit but I gave in at the same time|
Im going to bed
I have to learn to stand up for myself. and things. normally Ill say what I think. then I just give in, and I cant keep doing that, it has to be strong all the way. because Ill only truly lose if I give in, and Im losing a lot more than just an arguement.
This makes no sense Im dumb Im stupid I quit but I gave in at the same time|
Im going to bed