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Oh my.
Today was such a hectic day and I'm so glad it's over now. I'm not going to sit here and complain about everything that went wrong today because everyone makes mistakes and I just need to learn from mine and move on. That's it and that's all.
So I've been thinking about a certain inner conflict I've been having and I just wish it would go away. I fight with myself way too much lately. This isn't good at all. The strange thing with this conflict is that I can't seem to put my finger on exactly what the conflict is. I just feel like something isn't write. Something's out of place and I don't know how to fix it. My head hurts and I haven't been feeling up to par. I have a constant feeling of butterflies in my stomach. I miss my mom. Sometimes I wonder what she would say to me, what advice she would give, or what she would do if put in my place.
My friends are so good to me for putting up with my mood swings. Thanks. Barb listens to me rant on forever about those conflicts I've been having and always provides me with the best advice. Thank you thank you.
I know all of this will subside eventually. I'm really trying so hard to look ahead but why am I still stuck on the past? I need to move on or else I will break. I don't want that...so I will change.
I think I'll go clean because that will get my mind off of things and make me tired so I can sleep. Good night.
ps. A button fell off my jacket today. This means something...i think...and I'm sewing it back on.
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