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wow. full on panic mode just set in.
i am graduating in two weeks. i have THREE days of school left. that only three days that i will ever get to see some of these people again. no, not my good friends, i know i'll be seeing them. but i never really realized how accustomed i have grown to seeing the same faces everyday. each class has something special about it, a certain person that makes me laugh or something that makes it unique. i say i'm ready to leave, but who am i kidding! i'm only just eighteen... and what does that mean anyway! this is so scary! i have been putting this breakdown off for months now, but i can't ignore it anymore. it's soo close... jeez. i can't be on my own! i can't leave my family and friends and just start over... i mean yes i can and i know i will be fine but... hm. i have LOVED my years at bishop moore. my friends are my saviors and i don't know what i'll do without them. even the ones i talk to only once a day. i'm scared i'll never be this comfortable with a group of people again. i'd say i'm pretty freaked out.
but at the same time, i am so ready to meet new people. i want different adventures, new situations, new friends and i want to forget the things that have been bugging me. i love FSU and can't wait to go to games and parties and classes, be in charge of myself (scary).
i'm just not sure if i'm completely ready to let the old go.
<3 Cole
i am graduating in two weeks. i have THREE days of school left. that only three days that i will ever get to see some of these people again. no, not my good friends, i know i'll be seeing them. but i never really realized how accustomed i have grown to seeing the same faces everyday. each class has something special about it, a certain person that makes me laugh or something that makes it unique. i say i'm ready to leave, but who am i kidding! i'm only just eighteen... and what does that mean anyway! this is so scary! i have been putting this breakdown off for months now, but i can't ignore it anymore. it's soo close... jeez. i can't be on my own! i can't leave my family and friends and just start over... i mean yes i can and i know i will be fine but... hm. i have LOVED my years at bishop moore. my friends are my saviors and i don't know what i'll do without them. even the ones i talk to only once a day. i'm scared i'll never be this comfortable with a group of people again. i'd say i'm pretty freaked out.
but at the same time, i am so ready to meet new people. i want different adventures, new situations, new friends and i want to forget the things that have been bugging me. i love FSU and can't wait to go to games and parties and classes, be in charge of myself (scary).
i'm just not sure if i'm completely ready to let the old go.
<3 Cole