Jan 29, 2006 20:39
blah blah blah haha
hmm interesting mood. it was a pretty uneventful weekend, but not bad i guess. i just feel so much like i need something new rather than waiting around for things to happen. friday was good, my mommy let me go to the basketball game (yay we won) and i got to hang out with the lovely ktq and amazing dana. then we walked over to the soccer game (yay we won) and saw the latinas and some other people. picked up my sis and went to denny's. it was delish. haha.
sat... did nothing exciting. everyone was out and at the truck thing, wish i could have gone it sounds like it was quite the fun time. i went to the eye doctor? exciting? nahh haha then we went to dinner at the neighbors. that was fun.
today went to my brother's football game it's so cute to watch them all play! then i came home and cleaned.
i can't really describe my mood. i'm so sick of feeling like i feel, it's getting ridiculous. i can't say what it is, i can point out some things that might lead to it but i won't get into that. it's something i can't help or won't help or just have no clue how to go about trying to feel better about it. blaahhhhh. i just wish i could go to college right now, i wish i could feel the way i wish i could and i wish i could believe in myself a little bit. but i don't know how. even if i tried i don't think i could do it. i'm so tired of being alone. everyone seems to have someone, i guess it really is something in the water. lol. hmmmm.
i guess i'm just ready for something new. someone new? maybe. hopefully. oh well.
i'm pretty tired. i'm gonna go try to sleep off this mood.
<3 Cole