AHHHH!
I am really freakin out here! major stuff goin on in my life and i don't know how to handle it. the way i have been is not the best choice but i have just been upset about it but w/e it doesn't matter anymore. what matters is that i figure out what i am gonna do with my time. i haven't told anyone about it because i don't know how. and i don't want to get people worried for no reason because it is not 100% for cretain yet so if it turns out positive then i will tell all of you well i will have to really but until then i guess i have to worry on my own. i just wish that it wasn't so hard. its not something anyone should have to deal with and it is scary that i have to i am really just writing this for my benifit not to freak people out i just needed to vent i guess. but i am done now i love you all