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looks like lifes on a land slide for me. if only alex new the truth if only she would give me a chance to talk if only she would lesson. how can she say she always love me but cant be with me and its her own chose i wish i knew maybe it would take away the pain that inside maybe it would make it ok maybe i would then understand i dont know. I really thought that i found my special person and i thought that she thought the same thing but i guess i was wrong what did i do i pord my heart out to this girl in front of every one it was like we were a un break able bond yeah i guess i was wrong there to yeah 1 day till my birthday and i would give anything to have her back i thought that we would last forever she say we can be friends if there a way to be friend with some one that u love like no other and that u have been with and that u have went through things that friends dont go through there is no friends there no way i could do that be friends with some one that i care for so much be friends with someone that i would not care staying with for ever i just really dont see a way to be friends with her i dont know what to do but if some one know well i dont shit yeah i hate this fucken town of bancroft not a thing to do nothing around but fucken farm field after farm field u know i us to look forward to the weekend cause i go hang out with alex but now out here the weekend are like anyother fucken boring day i dont know but i got to go hey to all hit me back