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heres so everyone knows. im giving up on everything. even this live journal. but only cuz i suck at life. im so unhappy right now. and only when i was with my friends i feel happy. i used to feel happy all the time. untill i meet this guy. and he was nice and sweet. but then all that turned to bitterness. i feel so sick right now, so unhappy, so unsure where life takes me next. this will be me signing off, this LJ. and i want you all to know. nothings worth love. nothing. and i wish i should have been aure of this all befor. cuz now to me its clear as day. i feel so dead, lifeless, useless. and if anyone cares, well i still feel like theres noone out there.noone. so this is the end. you will see me in school. yeah ill be smiling. maybe even pasting it on. but its all just for show. you dont need to pitty me. so now when anyone asks, ill say theres nothing wrong. cuz really im no need of your time. this is by far the worst year-summer ever. only becaouse of that someone. i dont need to say his name. he will pay. when my sisters friends or her find him. he will feel pain like i did. and yes, hes bruses will heal. but mine forever will remain. lying on my heart, clinging to it. like a bad memory. like a lil child being scooped but from its mother by a monster in a fairy tale. now this LJ has come to an end. in the words of davey havok- why do all good things come to an end.
"eyes"
im screaming your name, can't you hear me? you mean so much to me. but with thos soft eyes, you are killing me. so why cant you love me? just what do i gotta do, so you come back to me? i know everything was just a lie. so why can't we lie together? [just like before.] but still with your soft eyes you are killing me.
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