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I have cried more in the last month than I did in 2023, which is likely a triumphant amount.
First I was fostering the puppies that almost made me lose it. Now it's mostly stress that I'm going to fail my comprehensive exams. I tried another trial run of 10 examples for the listening and I didn't feel good about it. I think I got at least four, maybe as many as six. I think they will let you pass with seven. I have terms that I don't remember three pieces for, let alone the history of chamber opera, or the pedagogy that I've literally never been instructed about. All this for what? Unlikely prospects at getting a job if/when I graduate at 40... Today I was basically paralyzed by the weight of these exams. And I have other things I need to be doing!
I was looking at a list of best plug-in hybrids today because some ad popped up and a land rover costs close to $150,000. I can't even fathom that. I fucked myself over by buying a $35,000 Mini Cooper with 0.5% interest (yes that is the correct number).
Plus I'm feeling really shit about myself and I somehow thought that watching "Red, White, and Royal Blue" again was a good idea...
Taylor Zakhar Perez and Nicholas Galitzine holding hands in "Red, White, and Royal Blue."
Like what? I got stood up twice this week by hook-ups. I'm never going to find someone to love me.
fuck.