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so, a lot of things are going on. while justin and I were in new york for our one year anniversary, cody broke his other leg while in the care of justin's mother and now has two casts.
we may be moving out of our current apartment because bobbie jo is fucking insane, and I can't deal with a landlord who's so fucking involved in like, their tentants lives. she gets mad over nothing while she lets her kids get away with fucking murder.
I've come to terms with the fact that I am no longer making enough money at my job to support myself and justin's lifestyle. It's to the point where we seriously can't pay our bills, which is why the aforementioned apartment bullshit is coming at a really bad time.
I'm also in a hell of a lot of debt. About $5000? Maybe? I've tried to stop paying attention because it's a huge stress in my life that needs to be taken care of. I've been having slight panic attacks because of it.
bitches are fucking stupid. the drama at my work is just completely out of fucking control. like, if I said 'person a is a bitch', then ran to person b and said, 'well person c said that person a is a bitch', does that make any sense? no. if you say that someone has std's, don't go fucking say that it came out of someone else's mouth. like, that's just fucking retarded, especially if you're trying to tell me that this other person is the drama starter. no. you are malicious in intention, and you, my friend, are the fucking bitch in the situation.
anyway, heather and I have started hanging out again. oh, and by the way, yes, I know, I am a huge piece of shit and I deserved every single thing I got from that. there's no way that I can ever apologize fully for my actions, and it's frustrating. still feelin' like an asshole, but I deserve it.
im stressed, im angry, im confused, and as of right now, all im trying to do is take my mind off of everything that's going on. and find a new job!!
random entry. for some reason it's hard for me to organize my thoughts while updating via sidekick. not sure why.
we may be moving out of our current apartment because bobbie jo is fucking insane, and I can't deal with a landlord who's so fucking involved in like, their tentants lives. she gets mad over nothing while she lets her kids get away with fucking murder.
I've come to terms with the fact that I am no longer making enough money at my job to support myself and justin's lifestyle. It's to the point where we seriously can't pay our bills, which is why the aforementioned apartment bullshit is coming at a really bad time.
I'm also in a hell of a lot of debt. About $5000? Maybe? I've tried to stop paying attention because it's a huge stress in my life that needs to be taken care of. I've been having slight panic attacks because of it.
bitches are fucking stupid. the drama at my work is just completely out of fucking control. like, if I said 'person a is a bitch', then ran to person b and said, 'well person c said that person a is a bitch', does that make any sense? no. if you say that someone has std's, don't go fucking say that it came out of someone else's mouth. like, that's just fucking retarded, especially if you're trying to tell me that this other person is the drama starter. no. you are malicious in intention, and you, my friend, are the fucking bitch in the situation.
anyway, heather and I have started hanging out again. oh, and by the way, yes, I know, I am a huge piece of shit and I deserved every single thing I got from that. there's no way that I can ever apologize fully for my actions, and it's frustrating. still feelin' like an asshole, but I deserve it.
im stressed, im angry, im confused, and as of right now, all im trying to do is take my mind off of everything that's going on. and find a new job!!
random entry. for some reason it's hard for me to organize my thoughts while updating via sidekick. not sure why.