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I stared at my reflection &the trees behind it for a very long time. Not thinking about anything. Not feeling anything. Not hearing the record. For hours. Something really is wrong with me. &I don't know what it is.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying now to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
I think they knew. Not anything specific really. They just knew. &I think that's all you can ever ask from a friend.
they're all from Perks, and they're all true right now.
I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying now to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
I think they knew. Not anything specific really. They just knew. &I think that's all you can ever ask from a friend.
they're all from Perks, and they're all true right now.