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im so bored. so I thought id do a little update.
I officially dropped my chemistry class, therefore, im taking a break from school all together. the chem class was too much to take as a summer course. learning 3 chapters a week of stuff that I’ve never seen before in my life was really overwhelming. I got a 100 on my first project, and was getting c's on my labs (along with the rest of the class) and failing all the tests. the way he figured out the grades, I would have needed 100's on all the rest of my tests to even get a c as a final grade, which wouldn’t have happened. it just sucked, because I was studying really hard and I really tried this time. but it was just too overwhelming to have to cram 3 chapters worth of info into a week, and then have a test on all of it the following Monday. so without chemistry, I cant apply for the dental assisting or hygiene program. I think it’s the best thing for me to take a break from school right now. my heart isent in it. id rather take a year and work my ass off, save up some money (since I have absolutely no money saved up), maybe move out, start somewhat of a life, and yea. if I do end up moving in with lester in a year, ill probably go back to school while he's doing his masters.
I sorta feel scummy not going to school. I feel like people are just gonna think I cant handle it so I quit, or im just lazy. and people are always like "you say you'll go back, but you wont". well fuck that. I WILL go back. school has never been my thing, ever since elementary school. and right now, I have too much going on in my life to have to work and go to school and actually do well at the same time. plus, without my parents helping me financially, I really need to work more to stay on my feet until I have a good chuck of money put away. this is what I wanted to originally do when I got out of high school, just take some time off and work, but everyone yelled at me not to. bah.
but in the fall, im gonna get my x-ray licence. I think its only a semester long. this way, ill get paid more at work, and it'll be very helpful if I go to look for another assisting job down the road. I like my job, so I really don’t mind working it full time. so yea, word.
um, my non exsistant thyroid. yea, so I went to a specialist a few weeks ago. she looked at my blood results and said that I really don’t have a thyroid. its there, but its doing absolutely nothing. she said thats why I’ve seen no weight loss results even though im eating right and working out since it controls the metabolism. so in other words... I don’t have a metabolism! yay for being fat. she also felt little node things on it. scarey stuff =/. so I have to go for an ultra sound in 2 weeks. the more I find out about this, the more scared I get. I never realized how important ur thyroid is. but all I can do right now is take this shit that im gonna have to take for the rest of my life, and wait. but hey, if they have to remove it, they'll just have to put me on lots of meds and ill have a super fast metabolism! every cloud has a silver lining, right?
well, in happy news, I get to see finch again! FUCKING YAAAAAY! Finch AND head automatica! WOO! August 17th, you should all go, cuz I said so!
and lester is coming over Wednesday!!!! I havent seen him since February. for all of you that complain you never seen your significant other and they live "so far away" and you can only see them every other week or something... I laugh at you =P try not seeing your boyfriend for 5 months, then we'll talk! good times shall be had. IM SO EXCITED =D!!!
but as always, my life is boring, so thats it.
im out!
I officially dropped my chemistry class, therefore, im taking a break from school all together. the chem class was too much to take as a summer course. learning 3 chapters a week of stuff that I’ve never seen before in my life was really overwhelming. I got a 100 on my first project, and was getting c's on my labs (along with the rest of the class) and failing all the tests. the way he figured out the grades, I would have needed 100's on all the rest of my tests to even get a c as a final grade, which wouldn’t have happened. it just sucked, because I was studying really hard and I really tried this time. but it was just too overwhelming to have to cram 3 chapters worth of info into a week, and then have a test on all of it the following Monday. so without chemistry, I cant apply for the dental assisting or hygiene program. I think it’s the best thing for me to take a break from school right now. my heart isent in it. id rather take a year and work my ass off, save up some money (since I have absolutely no money saved up), maybe move out, start somewhat of a life, and yea. if I do end up moving in with lester in a year, ill probably go back to school while he's doing his masters.
I sorta feel scummy not going to school. I feel like people are just gonna think I cant handle it so I quit, or im just lazy. and people are always like "you say you'll go back, but you wont". well fuck that. I WILL go back. school has never been my thing, ever since elementary school. and right now, I have too much going on in my life to have to work and go to school and actually do well at the same time. plus, without my parents helping me financially, I really need to work more to stay on my feet until I have a good chuck of money put away. this is what I wanted to originally do when I got out of high school, just take some time off and work, but everyone yelled at me not to. bah.
but in the fall, im gonna get my x-ray licence. I think its only a semester long. this way, ill get paid more at work, and it'll be very helpful if I go to look for another assisting job down the road. I like my job, so I really don’t mind working it full time. so yea, word.
um, my non exsistant thyroid. yea, so I went to a specialist a few weeks ago. she looked at my blood results and said that I really don’t have a thyroid. its there, but its doing absolutely nothing. she said thats why I’ve seen no weight loss results even though im eating right and working out since it controls the metabolism. so in other words... I don’t have a metabolism! yay for being fat. she also felt little node things on it. scarey stuff =/. so I have to go for an ultra sound in 2 weeks. the more I find out about this, the more scared I get. I never realized how important ur thyroid is. but all I can do right now is take this shit that im gonna have to take for the rest of my life, and wait. but hey, if they have to remove it, they'll just have to put me on lots of meds and ill have a super fast metabolism! every cloud has a silver lining, right?
well, in happy news, I get to see finch again! FUCKING YAAAAAY! Finch AND head automatica! WOO! August 17th, you should all go, cuz I said so!
and lester is coming over Wednesday!!!! I havent seen him since February. for all of you that complain you never seen your significant other and they live "so far away" and you can only see them every other week or something... I laugh at you =P try not seeing your boyfriend for 5 months, then we'll talk! good times shall be had. IM SO EXCITED =D!!!
but as always, my life is boring, so thats it.
im out!