nobody is gonna read it anyways...so...yeah
well...this is my first update in a while...and it is a doosy...
i did it. i finally and actually did it. i am officially single. and i don't know how to explain it. i guess it sort of happened when we were driving to his mom's house from starbucks. he was complaining about his tooth bothering him, and i had noticed that his teeth were starting to get stained from smoking (gross?)...and i thought to myself...is it just a coincidence that both of these symptoms are happening at the same time?
so i said to him...you should stop smoking...it is damaging ur enamel and is causing you to have toothaches from the tar and nicotine, and we argued about that...
and it got to the point where he said,"if it bothers you that bad....go find someone who doesn't smoke"...and it hit me...that that is exactly what i need to do...it isn't necessarily the smoking that bothers me (even though i hate cigarettes)...it's the multiple promises that he made to not only me...but his mom...and his dad...and himself, that he would quit..and if he can't keep a promise to himself...how in the world is he suppose to keep one to me?
so..i did it...and it is finished...i don't know if a weight has been put on me or taken off...yet...
so..yeah..i feel good about the decision...but i think i could have handled it better as far as telling him...but...well...yeah...in the words of the great J.C...."It is finished."
i did it. i finally and actually did it. i am officially single. and i don't know how to explain it. i guess it sort of happened when we were driving to his mom's house from starbucks. he was complaining about his tooth bothering him, and i had noticed that his teeth were starting to get stained from smoking (gross?)...and i thought to myself...is it just a coincidence that both of these symptoms are happening at the same time?
so i said to him...you should stop smoking...it is damaging ur enamel and is causing you to have toothaches from the tar and nicotine, and we argued about that...
and it got to the point where he said,"if it bothers you that bad....go find someone who doesn't smoke"...and it hit me...that that is exactly what i need to do...it isn't necessarily the smoking that bothers me (even though i hate cigarettes)...it's the multiple promises that he made to not only me...but his mom...and his dad...and himself, that he would quit..and if he can't keep a promise to himself...how in the world is he suppose to keep one to me?
so..i did it...and it is finished...i don't know if a weight has been put on me or taken off...yet...
so..yeah..i feel good about the decision...but i think i could have handled it better as far as telling him...but...well...yeah...in the words of the great J.C...."It is finished."