the heart wants what it wants.. there's no logic to those things.
This feeling I have is just so strange. I'm very conflicted. Seriously. It's like, I know what I want, but I don't know what to do about it. As in, one path would get it for me, and the other one is the path I should actually take. Why does that have to be the case? Why can't I just get what I want and call it a day? Or my life.
I also feel like something is so completely out of place that stepping forward is almost impossible. Of course, I know I will because I don't really have a choice. But that doesn't help the way I feel.
I know... everything happens for a reason and if it's meant to happen it will. But what's with the teasing? Why would you dangle the option in front of me and wait until I really want it before snatching it back and saying 'hey, this isn't what you're supposed to want.' And then, the way it was dangled, it doesn't make any sense that it isn't supposed to be that way. Maybe I shouldn't believe in signs, but every one was pointed to this dangled string of happiness.
I just don't think I'm willing to accept it as wrong.
It CAN'T be.
I also feel like something is so completely out of place that stepping forward is almost impossible. Of course, I know I will because I don't really have a choice. But that doesn't help the way I feel.
I know... everything happens for a reason and if it's meant to happen it will. But what's with the teasing? Why would you dangle the option in front of me and wait until I really want it before snatching it back and saying 'hey, this isn't what you're supposed to want.' And then, the way it was dangled, it doesn't make any sense that it isn't supposed to be that way. Maybe I shouldn't believe in signs, but every one was pointed to this dangled string of happiness.
I just don't think I'm willing to accept it as wrong.
It CAN'T be.