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[onceuponadreamx]

I woke up today to call work and tell them that I wasn't feeling good and that I wouldn't be coming in...Holly said it was fine and that her sister came in anyway. So then I laid down in bed and listen to my I-pod and thought about yesterday and then my eyes got all teary again. I think its so stupid that this is what makes me cry and that I shouldn't cry over it. Anyway I took the longest shower ever and I sat all curled up for like 20mins while the water was running. I came downstairs and said I didn't feel good and my dad, the nice person he is, thought that I was just saying that so I wouldn't have to clean. And I just wanted to scream at him. My mom thought I was sick but I guess they don't count emotionally feeling bad as "not feeling good" whatever I wasn't going to explain it to them. After I ate something I said mom when are we going to go get my passport stuff and my dads like "Not today." I explained that I needed to because I couldn't send it throught the mail and he was like,"Thats bullshit you chose today because we are cleaning" And then yet again I just wanted to scream at him, but I didn't. I'm learning to control myself. So while they were fighting about my passport I went to my room and started cleaning because yet again i have to give up my room to relatives when I need it (my room) most.

Now I'm waiting for my brother to come back with lunch so i can eat and go back to cleaning.