Down-grade DEgrading
After I went to my moms last night I got up and I was just so out of it. I barely slept, I haven't really eaten all day .... This is aall bothering me to no end. The way will has turned everything around on me. He says he won't be treated like this.. But he will treat me any way he damn well pleases. Before I left earlier he started telling me there's no connection between us, which I interpret as, he's telling me he doesn't love me. He wants me to love unconditionally but he doesn't have to. As soon as I look like scum to him, he doesn't have to care about me. I acted irrationally when pushed past my limit. I had so much control last night and he pushed me one step further. So I left. Today I got to be the blamee in the blame game. If I had communicated to him rationally what he already knew I would have been taken seriously. It's all just a mind fuck at this point. He wants me to leave but won't outright admit it because I believe he knows the boys would go with me. He said we go from one bad thing, to being great to another and it's my fault for blowing up. I said we're fine until you outright disrespect me with another girl.... He doesn't see it that way. He sees this whole other dimension that's not even reality
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