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my washing machine broke.
the only reason i mentioned this to my boss is because I wash the massage table sheets at home once a week.
(he pays me to do it).
and that particular week I obviously couldn't do it.
so i told him not to worry if we seem to be running low on clean sheets because I would figure out a way to get it done.
my washer was rather expensive to repair but it was still cheaper than buying a new one.
he casually asked how much it cost to fix.
I told him and thought nothing of it...i just thought he was making conversation.
and then today I opened my paycheck to discover a seperate check inside labled "laundry repair."
i almost cried.
it's been awhile since i've felt taken care of.
not to abruptly change the subject but...
i think i'm giving up going on traditional dates.
they are awkward.
and i feel fake everytime i dress myself up to go out with a boy i don't really know.
i'd much rather throw on a hoodie, a pair of jeans and drink a beer over a good conversation.
I have kissed too many boys out of obligation.
i do the dating math:
1 opened car door +
1 expensive dinner+
3 courtesy laughs at my lame jokes __
5 second kiss on the lips.
that formula doesn't really seem to be working for me.
plus, it's really lame.
do you know who i find most attractive?
the typical "guy next door" kinda men.
you know who i'm talking about...
the ones who are just there.
the ones who are apart of the group and become friends with you first.
maybe i'm old fashioned but i think honest attraction needs time to grow.
lust is common and incredibly superficial.
but true attraction?
like, truly craving someone's personality and insight...
it doesn't just happen in an instant.
it grows on you.
i'll find a guy who digs the girl next door type eventually.
and if not, i guess i'll be single for quite awhile because i sure as hell am not settling.
That's all I've got for now.
I'm sure I'll write again soon.
love,
jb