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ever see something so beautiful that it actually makes your heart hurt?
i've just recently discovered that beauty-- true beauty--hits deep.
and it hurts. but it's a good kind of hurt.
my mom is so beautiful that it hurts sometimes.
she's sitting across the room from me now in her chair watching wheel of fortune.
(we always watch wheel of fortune together)
her wig is off.
and her hat is beside her.
her bald head exposed.
and she is beautiful
rewind back to this past christmas day when mom opened the last gift...
...the necklace with the birthstone of august on it...
and steph announcing she's due in august.
and the tears came.
pure joy.
it was beautiful
and my neice...
who has long legs already
and is still working on getting here
she is beautiful
a year ago i was preparing myself to go to africa
...oh africa...
that continent in and of itself is beautiful.
a million words could never do it justice.
but those children who were starving to be held...
and touched...
and loved on...
beautiful
and that moment i had on a beach there in Benin...
watching the waves rise and fall beneath a sunset that blended a thousand different colors into something so perfect...
and for the first time in a long time i felt peace.
like perhaps my entire life led up to this one moment.
and i realized i was ok.
and no matter what, i'd be ok.
it was sacred.
and pure.
it was a connection from the heart of my creator straight into mine
it was beyond beautiful
it was just what i needed right when i needed it.
*sigh*
that's all i got.
loveyoubye.