a quick thought(s)
have you ever found yourself so intent on realizing a certain satisfaction that, during the course of attempting to attain that satisfaction, you miss all of the *lesser* satisfactions that surround you? found yourself so bent on realizing one dream that you don't have time for all the other dreams that come true along the way? as a people, we like to have a focus. and focus is a great thing to have, as it gives us somewhere to direct our desires and our ambitions. too often, however, we put on blinders and look at only that focus and don't take time to realize all of the other blessings and pleasing goings-on in life. that's a shame.
and Mills, I'm in no mood to be long-winded or sentimental, since i have to be up in 5 hours to drive to rochester and my head's pounding, but the same goes for you. i really don't know how i'd have gotten through a lot of the shit (wait, wait) that I've been through in the past...15 years or so now without you around to shine light on (yes, when you shoot from behind the line and it goes in, it's worth three points. and the team with the most points at the end, wins) - or at least make light of (see: France and the Cuban world cup hockey team)- life and its little miseries, mysteries and joys. That means an awful lot. Thank you.
and, to quote Orwell (because, really, what day goes by in my life when I'm not quoting Orwell, Huxley or Fitzgerald at least once each,) "Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood." The past few hours have, in all honesty, been some of the best hours that I've spent since I first walked onto this campus in april of my junior year of high school and immediately knew that I would find what i needed here, somehow or another. I don't know if you'll ever read this, but there aren't words to express my gratitude to you for being you, for understanding, for accepting me for who i am and not asking anything in return.
There's an awful lot that I'm yet to learn, and an indeterminable amount more that I'll never learn. And I'm okay with that, because as I learned tonight, it isn't what or who you know, and it isn't what you've done and what you'll do that makes life what it is, and it isn't even what's happened or what might happen. it's what you're doing. and as long as you can do that with a smile on your face, nothing else matters.
And on top of that, it's realizing that tomorrow holds surprises for us that we can't even dream of today.
and Mills, I'm in no mood to be long-winded or sentimental, since i have to be up in 5 hours to drive to rochester and my head's pounding, but the same goes for you. i really don't know how i'd have gotten through a lot of the shit (wait, wait) that I've been through in the past...15 years or so now without you around to shine light on (yes, when you shoot from behind the line and it goes in, it's worth three points. and the team with the most points at the end, wins) - or at least make light of (see: France and the Cuban world cup hockey team)- life and its little miseries, mysteries and joys. That means an awful lot. Thank you.
and, to quote Orwell (because, really, what day goes by in my life when I'm not quoting Orwell, Huxley or Fitzgerald at least once each,) "Perhaps one did not want to be loved so much as to be understood." The past few hours have, in all honesty, been some of the best hours that I've spent since I first walked onto this campus in april of my junior year of high school and immediately knew that I would find what i needed here, somehow or another. I don't know if you'll ever read this, but there aren't words to express my gratitude to you for being you, for understanding, for accepting me for who i am and not asking anything in return.
There's an awful lot that I'm yet to learn, and an indeterminable amount more that I'll never learn. And I'm okay with that, because as I learned tonight, it isn't what or who you know, and it isn't what you've done and what you'll do that makes life what it is, and it isn't even what's happened or what might happen. it's what you're doing. and as long as you can do that with a smile on your face, nothing else matters.
And on top of that, it's realizing that tomorrow holds surprises for us that we can't even dream of today.