insomnia? or maybe just crazy...

[on_your_porch22]

this is really random thing to talk about but i think im an insomniac.. i seriously never can sleep and if i do its during the day when im so tired that i have to fall asleep, not even if im trying to sleep. last night , i went to bed at 6:30, and that was pointless cause i was doing absolutely nothing... just lying in my bed thinking about everything in the world and probably more. mostly i think of one thing, and one thing especially, and i think of everything that has to do with that one thing... and everything that happened and wonder about it endlessly ... anyways.. this probably doesnt make sense to anyone but me, but thats okay. because this is my journal. haha.

anyways.
today im going to go mini golfing with my sister. cause we're cool like that.
i went golfing at my grandparents house.. and i was sad. me and natalee were planning t be pro golfers. well , scratch that. after the round of golf at my grandparents golf course.. my little sister beat me who's 11 and sucks at golf. i would like hit the golf ball into the boonies of egypt. it sucked . a lot. now i guess i have to be a lacrosse player or something. or maybe i'll just marry jesse mccartney. i mean, he doesnt like blondes, so now i figured now i have brown hair maybe ill have a chance.
lol and than nat will marry stephen from laguna beach and we'll live and california and me and her and stephen and jeremy will all be best friends.

if life were really that easy...

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