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donny you are alone in the world. I've come to this realization and of course, it is very humbling. I Want to quite the liquor store because I feel like a parasite on society. every day the same people come in, dragging their cans, and returning them for a mere 1.99 pint of vodka. their faces are worn, and I can see the suffering and despair in their eyes. It doesnt help that the homeless shelter is right next to the liquor store. Also I don't know how much more I can take of certain coworkers blowing heroin and coke in the bathroom all day. The world is turning into a trash can of expensive and destructive habits. I too am a subject of my environment. Smoking a pack a day and living from pay check to pay check trying to scrape together rent is not at all liberating. I forgot to mention the best part about being broke; the hunger. I've been living off d and d throw aways for about a month. what can I say, I put myself in this position to search for an answer. I still don't know it and won't until i get my shit together. be positive dammit. Oh and I still have not found that girl that makes this withered heart worth having, again.