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is ok after a few beers and some good people. i was going to do some reflection of the day. it's interesting to say the least, it's mother's day. i had a great day, aside from fighting with my love. jeri was amazing as always. hanging out with her was fun and so was taking a bath. i had originally wanted ot take a bath by myself but then jeri said she was lonely and so i picked her up and there we were. I was a little concerned. in my mind flashes of me making a move and her accepting it. but even though i could see that, it's not what i wanted. i was a little worried because usually what you picture it happens. but i turely love cacia, i didn't even THINK about doing anything with jeri. we just sat there and it was amazing and we talked. and i love sitting in warm water. we had mango sented bubbles, for those of you who don't know, that's jeri's favorite fruit. haha. i know that i flirt with her but honestly, i's just a fun thing. i flirt, i doesn't mean anything. i am now more confident then ever that jeri and i can totally be great friends and nothing more. i know that. i wish cacia knew that. i know that she has problems trusting me. i know because i cheated on her. but honestly i haven't done shit to her in a year. iknow that i dated other people but that was because i thought it was over. i really like jeri. like, i really hope we can be good friend's some day. i know she hasn't really accepted me yet, she wants to pretent that way but i know she hasn't. some day i hope she will. she needs abest freiend. someone she can tell anything to. like karath is to me. omg, karath my best friend? yeah. i like er. haha. there has been seriously over 12 people here and it's amazing. i feel like i was being anti-social while i was talking to cacia and trying to resolve issues but everone said they understood. omg i just looked at the clock and it's 1. wow. marks even here. weird. it's so weird. they are all really nice people. i like it a lot. tomorrow i'm going to go to hobby lobby and apply. good. i made brownies today. amazing. i'd like to pass out. i feel like such a party pooper. oh well. i know this is long but i just wnat to get my feelings out while i'm shit faced. know that i am being completely honest because i am drunk we played two rounds of circle of death and then played bs. it's been a long LONG day. i can't believe i can type so well, maybe when i'm sober it'll not look as good as i think it does now, i don't know, i'm not really paying attention. anyway i think i'm going to go to bed. tomorrow's monday. yeah! haha. i get to chill with myself and i'm excited about it. good. that's the way it should be and this weekend is kontiki so i already have plans. glad to know this is going to be ok. yeah at any rate i think the high light was..................everything. it's been an AMAZING mother's day, w/o my mother and i am happy. yes.