That's scary shit, man
So I had this dream last night, I couldn't tell you what it was about, but I woke up feeling really anxious and scared. There was this pressure on my body, on my heart. I couldn't stand it. I went to my 8am class, but afterwards I still felt like crying, like curling up in a ball and hiding from the world. Can I call this a panic attack? I get this way sometimes. I will be better in a day or two, but still. I should not feel like I am crap. I should not feel like I am nothing. As much as I want to put up a brave front, sometimes I just want to cave in and supernova.
I heart Jessica Maria for being here. Even though I know that I shouldn't be with him, I am glad that Brian is around. I do not know how, but he knows just how to make me feel better. I just like him next to me. Sometimes I cannot bear to let him go.
I heart Jessica Maria for being here. Even though I know that I shouldn't be with him, I am glad that Brian is around. I do not know how, but he knows just how to make me feel better. I just like him next to me. Sometimes I cannot bear to let him go.