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I have been so tired and cranky lately. I feel like I haven't slept in about a week or two. Lance is making me a peanut butter sandwich hehe. Cody, Steffy, and me went to Madisonville today to do inventory for Claire's because Steff works there and she was aloud to bring 2 people with her and we got paid. So I climbed ladders and stood up and down over and over and climbed on chairs and now my knee is purple and bruised and its burning bad. I took like an hour long bath earlier and just soaked and shaved my legs. It just felt good to sit down in hot water and make the swelling in my knee go down some. We had godfathers for lunch but it sucked cause it was only cheese. I hate cheese pizza. I love canadian bacon and pineapple pizza. Thats my all time favorite food and I bet noone knew that. Not even Lance. Amber probally did with how many times I ordered that from Hunter Pizzaria lol with there breadsticks. God I want some now. Guess that's what i'll have for dinner tomorrow. I'm puttin some weight on. It's ass. I'm already really self concious enough about everything on me so why not add weight to it. I don't even want people to look at me. It's gross.
So my dad is getting a divorce. I swear when people get a divorce in my family it makes me push away the person that i'm dating because I don't want to end up hurt. But mostly I just break up with them and get over it cause I didn't really care in the first place. But all i've been doing with Lance is pushing him into another state cause I don't want to end up divorced or hurt. I hate heartbreaks.I've only had one and it was when Lance broke up with me and it killed me. I seriously cried so much that I couldnt cry anymore. It's like my eyes were saudered shut or something. I don't want that to happen and I don't want to do that to someone. Both of those situations would kill me and make me feel horrible and probally tramatize me. But my sandwich is here i'm off like a prom dress.
So my dad is getting a divorce. I swear when people get a divorce in my family it makes me push away the person that i'm dating because I don't want to end up hurt. But mostly I just break up with them and get over it cause I didn't really care in the first place. But all i've been doing with Lance is pushing him into another state cause I don't want to end up divorced or hurt. I hate heartbreaks.I've only had one and it was when Lance broke up with me and it killed me. I seriously cried so much that I couldnt cry anymore. It's like my eyes were saudered shut or something. I don't want that to happen and I don't want to do that to someone. Both of those situations would kill me and make me feel horrible and probally tramatize me. But my sandwich is here i'm off like a prom dress.