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I sometimes find it very strange how things change so quickly and people are always themselves in one light or another. I think maybe we change but maybe we stay the same.
My rambling is going to be a bit strange but that's ok tonight. I think it is a big pivoting point and it has got a bit of thinking behind it.
I have been hanging out with Mallory alot recently and am so glad to be doing so. It is nice to have such a good role model (though he would just laugh at me for saying as much) and I really appreciate him as a friend. I think everyone needs friends like Mallory ... good Andrews' who can look after them and be what they least expect and need most in life. I am VERY lucky to have two of them and I can't tell you what it means to me. I don't think I have the wisdom or insight to be as understanding and logical as either of my Andrews but they can keep me sane when I need looking after and seem to just enjoy the company - even if there are bouts of silence.
This is going to be a stressful month and I have some very strong and very wonderful people baking me up in a pretty monumental decision in my life ... I even have my parents behind me in making everything work! It is really amazing to see things just fall into themselves and have something be a "yes" chance in life.
Somber? Not really. Just very ready to make this decision. I know it to be one in a long line of ones to come and yeah, that is really damn scary - but that's life and I am more than able to handle it.
I just need to remember that babies are durable. I might think myself incapable of something but really I am more able than I know ... I just need to have faith in myself.
This is more a personal thing, so I can build up confidence and my typing skills on my new laptop ... But it is important to me that I remember very vividly that this is a decision, like so so many I have made before. This one may seem bigger than the rest but Ozik may say I am wrong on that account. If I treat this like everything else it is going to turn out alright.
It is just satisfying.
I am going to a good place with good people and will be able to laugh and be around some very important smiles again soon.
In other news, I am hopefully going to be setting up some form of a birthday picnic again on a weekend before I leave. Want to come?
My rambling is going to be a bit strange but that's ok tonight. I think it is a big pivoting point and it has got a bit of thinking behind it.
I have been hanging out with Mallory alot recently and am so glad to be doing so. It is nice to have such a good role model (though he would just laugh at me for saying as much) and I really appreciate him as a friend. I think everyone needs friends like Mallory ... good Andrews' who can look after them and be what they least expect and need most in life. I am VERY lucky to have two of them and I can't tell you what it means to me. I don't think I have the wisdom or insight to be as understanding and logical as either of my Andrews but they can keep me sane when I need looking after and seem to just enjoy the company - even if there are bouts of silence.
This is going to be a stressful month and I have some very strong and very wonderful people baking me up in a pretty monumental decision in my life ... I even have my parents behind me in making everything work! It is really amazing to see things just fall into themselves and have something be a "yes" chance in life.
Somber? Not really. Just very ready to make this decision. I know it to be one in a long line of ones to come and yeah, that is really damn scary - but that's life and I am more than able to handle it.
I just need to remember that babies are durable. I might think myself incapable of something but really I am more able than I know ... I just need to have faith in myself.
This is more a personal thing, so I can build up confidence and my typing skills on my new laptop ... But it is important to me that I remember very vividly that this is a decision, like so so many I have made before. This one may seem bigger than the rest but Ozik may say I am wrong on that account. If I treat this like everything else it is going to turn out alright.
It is just satisfying.
I am going to a good place with good people and will be able to laugh and be around some very important smiles again soon.
In other news, I am hopefully going to be setting up some form of a birthday picnic again on a weekend before I leave. Want to come?