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[ominousthomas]

Reconnected with Heidi for nothing, be best friends again for almost a year and then she abandons me and so does Paige. I'm all alone. I can't take this, this pain is too much to bare, and then when I see you and your new man happy around town I die. I jut die. Knowing he is in your arms and bed,it makes me sick and ill. I don't know how to move on, I don't know how to cope everyone has abandoned me, I am friendless foundering on the shore. I'm going to have to try and od, I'm halfway there three in the hole my dose and a box of cold medicine, I can't see straight as i type this, I hope it comes out ok, I wouldn't want a sloppy last journal entry for my poor mum to find and think "oh thst pitiful boy of mine, he just can't get well" I feelmso bad for mum, she tried but even she is running away to South Carolina and ill be all alone. And I'm scared, I know I womt die tonight ill just go to bed like always, maybe puke in the mornng,
Tomorrow I talk to a priest about signing my life away to a monastery I k ow it's stupid and I won't go to a monastery I just think I want someone to talkmto me, I'm so lonely. So lonely so lonely so lonely so lonely so lonely so lonely so lonely so Long,