Bye bye beautiful don't bother to write
Dear god,
I know now for certain you don't exist I didnt see the light my life didn't flash before my eyes.just blackness, cold blackness. That was fine imnnot complaining really Im not but why the fuck did I have to wake up? Why why why why why why. For the first time in months I felt at peace and then you dragged me kicking and screaming. Back to life why couldn't you just leave me in a coma? Why couldn't u just let me drown in my own lung fluid? Why why why whybwhynwhy why?! I can't live like this it's not working for me, why why why why I tried so hard to die I finally thought I had it right, I thought for sure id be dead or atleast so brain damaged I'd never feel anything again. Now I'll never get another chance now my mom is watching me twenty four seven, taken away all my sharp things and pills. I'll show you you worthless fake god, the next chance I get the next time they aren't watching I'll get it right. I'll blow my brains out all over the walls and craw. Back into that cold black tunnel and sleep one more no respirators stomach pumps orany other bullshit in my way.so watch out god cause I'm gunning for you this time and I'll get it right if it's the last thing I do.
I know now for certain you don't exist I didnt see the light my life didn't flash before my eyes.just blackness, cold blackness. That was fine imnnot complaining really Im not but why the fuck did I have to wake up? Why why why why why why. For the first time in months I felt at peace and then you dragged me kicking and screaming. Back to life why couldn't you just leave me in a coma? Why couldn't u just let me drown in my own lung fluid? Why why why whybwhynwhy why?! I can't live like this it's not working for me, why why why why I tried so hard to die I finally thought I had it right, I thought for sure id be dead or atleast so brain damaged I'd never feel anything again. Now I'll never get another chance now my mom is watching me twenty four seven, taken away all my sharp things and pills. I'll show you you worthless fake god, the next chance I get the next time they aren't watching I'll get it right. I'll blow my brains out all over the walls and craw. Back into that cold black tunnel and sleep one more no respirators stomach pumps orany other bullshit in my way.so watch out god cause I'm gunning for you this time and I'll get it right if it's the last thing I do.