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I feel unusual today, or everyday. Im not exactly sure, thats the rub, im not very sure of anything at all, infact if i didnt know better id say i was going schizophrenic. I act in a way that i did not perscribe for myself, i feel like im on auto pilot, wake up, work/school, break/down, sleep. I am no longer an active player in my own life, im running on cruise control. I feel different moment to moment, i hate everything, im bored, im thrilled.
Really i just dont know what to do with myself, i feel a vacuity if thats possible. I do not know what spurred this on, but i am going to drink until its better. If im drunk the weirdness of life will stop, i wont see rotting flesh and bones, i wont see people almost dead with no one left to care, i wont hear everyone yelling my name. itll be quiet
Life, barris said, as if to himself, "is only heavy and non else; there is only the one trip, all heavy, Heavy that leads to the grave, for everything and everyone
Really i just dont know what to do with myself, i feel a vacuity if thats possible. I do not know what spurred this on, but i am going to drink until its better. If im drunk the weirdness of life will stop, i wont see rotting flesh and bones, i wont see people almost dead with no one left to care, i wont hear everyone yelling my name. itll be quiet
Life, barris said, as if to himself, "is only heavy and non else; there is only the one trip, all heavy, Heavy that leads to the grave, for everything and everyone