I swear we were infinite.
This is the first night alone since I've been in Georgia for 3 weeks, that I feel this anxious. I feel like my heart is slowly breaking, and I'm facing the reality of losing the love of my life. Even with the bluntest communication, I feel like he is almost blind to the true reality of the situation. He doesn't get he's crushing me. I just want to be able to rely on him...:[ This is such a ridiculous problem that we shouldn't have, and if we didn't, things would be so beautiful. I know his potential and I feel the love in his heart, sooo why is there no motivation and absolute desire to resolve the distance between us? How is it humanly possible that he can be trying his hardest to find a job, and in almost 6 months has not gotten any callbacks or interviews? Doesn't he want to make things better? Our two year wedding anniversary is coming up, and I just want to save us. I don't like the barrage of emotions I have to work through. I'm not angry, just thoroughly discontent/disappointed. Scared, worried, lonely? I feel so hopeless tonight...
I feel the ache in my heart tear at me more each day, slowly shattering.
I just hope my husband tries to mend the pieces back together. :[
"I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way"
I feel the ache in my heart tear at me more each day, slowly shattering.
I just hope my husband tries to mend the pieces back together. :[
"I climb, I slip, I fall
Reaching for your hands
But I lay here all alone
Sweating all your blood
If I could find out how
To make you listen now
Because I'm starving for you here
With my undying love
And I, I will
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause there's no hope for today
Breathe for love tomorrow
Cause maybe there's another way"