This is not a test.
It's been a while since I actually updated this thing...
I've been pretty damned down lately. Just stuck in that pit of despair and lethargy known as unemployment. Though technically, I'm not really unemployed, just out of work like the rest of the guys who work for my company, as business is really dead right now. For the time being, I can collect unemployment and work a day or two every once and a while. It's just that I feel so rotten not going out and being active like usual. I'm starting to get irritated by the smallest things, and I feel very trapped right now.
To make things worse, one thing I was very much looking forward to in the future has been disrupted by a certain disturbing chain of events. Someone very dear and very far away from me is going through one of the most bizarre, frightening experiences imaginable, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm doomed to sit here and drool, letting others take care of the situation... I know it's foolish, but I just feel revulsed with myself when I fail to provide for and protect the one I cherish, even if there really is nothing I can do in this circumstance...
This is definitely shaping up to be a very harsh winter for a lot of people. I have a sinking feeling it's only going to get worse... but I don't want to get ahead of myself just yet.
I've been pretty damned down lately. Just stuck in that pit of despair and lethargy known as unemployment. Though technically, I'm not really unemployed, just out of work like the rest of the guys who work for my company, as business is really dead right now. For the time being, I can collect unemployment and work a day or two every once and a while. It's just that I feel so rotten not going out and being active like usual. I'm starting to get irritated by the smallest things, and I feel very trapped right now.
To make things worse, one thing I was very much looking forward to in the future has been disrupted by a certain disturbing chain of events. Someone very dear and very far away from me is going through one of the most bizarre, frightening experiences imaginable, and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm doomed to sit here and drool, letting others take care of the situation... I know it's foolish, but I just feel revulsed with myself when I fail to provide for and protect the one I cherish, even if there really is nothing I can do in this circumstance...
This is definitely shaping up to be a very harsh winter for a lot of people. I have a sinking feeling it's only going to get worse... but I don't want to get ahead of myself just yet.