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so i'm super stressed about life in general.
i had a meeting with my boss today, which made things twenty times better.
but! i'm still uber stressed out, things between me & andrew are extremely shitty for lack of a better word, and the only real reason i can think of for that is... he freaking forgot to pick me up on saturday, and though that seems mundane, it was a big deal for me. I don't know whats with me, i hate dating people, i had obligation, i hate commitment, but i love the feeling of someone wanting me. I'm awful ever since, well everyone knows that story. I just dont want to get fucked over again, damnit.
schools worrying the FUCK out of me, my grades are dropping (not drastically, they just aren't as good as they were last quarter) but, i still have two weeks to bring them up, so I plan on doing that.
i really need to get back into a good relationship with God, for the past year and a half i've had a struggling relationship, because i dont understand why good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people, but.. thats life, right?
My moms doing alot better which is a huge weight lifted off my shoulder, i dont think any of you know what it's like to have to worry about your mom all the time, my moms been sick for the last nine years off and on, and one of the main reasons im not leaving tennessee for college is because of her. I have an extremely close bond with my parents, and i dont think I could live with myself if something happend to her while i was away.
Colleges are stressing me out, i'm just a junior, i shouldnt even be worrying for another nine months, i really want to get into Belmont, which seems like an amazing school because i refuse to go to a big-huge-party-redneckfilled public school, (not ragging on anyone).
I've also lost alot of close bonds with a few of my old friends, i'm not to stressed about that though, because it's not completely my fault, the phone works both ways. I just hate it when you see someone you used to be friends with and attempt to make conversation with them and they completely blow you off. All i have to say about that is: Fuck you and good riddance.
<3!
i had a meeting with my boss today, which made things twenty times better.
but! i'm still uber stressed out, things between me & andrew are extremely shitty for lack of a better word, and the only real reason i can think of for that is... he freaking forgot to pick me up on saturday, and though that seems mundane, it was a big deal for me. I don't know whats with me, i hate dating people, i had obligation, i hate commitment, but i love the feeling of someone wanting me. I'm awful ever since, well everyone knows that story. I just dont want to get fucked over again, damnit.
schools worrying the FUCK out of me, my grades are dropping (not drastically, they just aren't as good as they were last quarter) but, i still have two weeks to bring them up, so I plan on doing that.
i really need to get back into a good relationship with God, for the past year and a half i've had a struggling relationship, because i dont understand why good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people, but.. thats life, right?
My moms doing alot better which is a huge weight lifted off my shoulder, i dont think any of you know what it's like to have to worry about your mom all the time, my moms been sick for the last nine years off and on, and one of the main reasons im not leaving tennessee for college is because of her. I have an extremely close bond with my parents, and i dont think I could live with myself if something happend to her while i was away.
Colleges are stressing me out, i'm just a junior, i shouldnt even be worrying for another nine months, i really want to get into Belmont, which seems like an amazing school because i refuse to go to a big-huge-party-redneckfilled public school, (not ragging on anyone).
I've also lost alot of close bonds with a few of my old friends, i'm not to stressed about that though, because it's not completely my fault, the phone works both ways. I just hate it when you see someone you used to be friends with and attempt to make conversation with them and they completely blow you off. All i have to say about that is: Fuck you and good riddance.
<3!