621 - [Alone]
Being alone is terrifying, but it is the key to shaking off the overwhelming need to constantly check yourself against the judgement of others. I'm not talking about constant isolation, just spending time alone in general, especially if used for constructive introspection and development. And it's tough, really tough. We all crave social interaction, even those of us who are naturally drawn to introversion, and none of us want to face the emotional demons we have hidden in the dark recesses of our minds. Me-time, however, goes a long way in the end.
Just think about yogis, monks, hermits, great thinkers, and even the spiritual symbols of religion that have been idolized - they all spent copious amounts of time alone. They were radical as hell! And you know why? They let their self be.
I've spent so much time by myself in the past few months that it really boggles my mind when I think about it. Yet when I come into interactions with people who aren't in my close friend group (and even some who are), I find that I let their critical looks roll off of me with more humor instead of letting it shake the foundation of my self-confidence like it used to do.
I guess people are starting to think I'm going a little crazy, but I feel that it's because I'm only beginning to open my mind to its true potential. I'm shaking off expectations of society and others, that's all, and letting my true self shine. I honestly don't care if others don't like it any more.
I don't care.
Just think about yogis, monks, hermits, great thinkers, and even the spiritual symbols of religion that have been idolized - they all spent copious amounts of time alone. They were radical as hell! And you know why? They let their self be.
I've spent so much time by myself in the past few months that it really boggles my mind when I think about it. Yet when I come into interactions with people who aren't in my close friend group (and even some who are), I find that I let their critical looks roll off of me with more humor instead of letting it shake the foundation of my self-confidence like it used to do.
I guess people are starting to think I'm going a little crazy, but I feel that it's because I'm only beginning to open my mind to its true potential. I'm shaking off expectations of society and others, that's all, and letting my true self shine. I honestly don't care if others don't like it any more.
I don't care.