Whoo?
I'm trying to think of something happy to say in hopes that it will actually make me happy.
Anthony and I went over to a friends house yesterday and ate lots of cheese and bread. I had goat cheese for the first time in my life. Who knew that goat chesse and marinara sauce on a piece of bread could be so good? Then Tony gave our friends massages which they seemed to thouroughly enjoy. Shitty that I still haven't gotten a massage with his new table, but whatev. Other people apparently come first.
Okay.... something else happy.
Oh! Since January is moving out of her place we get to have her couch, and her bookshelves, and maybe something else. Best part about it is that it's FREE! I'm thankful that they are being so generous with their things. We really need it.
My birthday is on Wednesday. I'm pretty excited about it. Anthony has the entire day planned out, and I'm supposed to be getting an epic present. Not sure what it is but I'm sure that I'll like it. He's a great gift picker. Going to Hard Knocks that day too. Birthday people are free all day! :) I haven't been to Hard Knocks since April so this trip is long overdue. And then Thursday is the day of the party. I kind of envisioned myself celebrating with the other people that I use to be close to, but... everything happens for a reason. It'll still be a good day anyway. Hopefully.
I have to give up my whole non-monogamous lifestyle. Well I'm not literally being forced to but in a way I sort of am. Boyfriend doesn't understand why I'd want to see other people. Has that whole "I'm not enough" thing going on. Tried to explain but it hasn't helped. Not something I want to do but what am I supposed to do leave him? He loves me a lot! And I love him as well. It's just something I'll just have to deal with I guess. I'll get over it. /shruggs.
About that whole routine thing it's sort of going okay. I've started exercising and kind of eating more. It's still really hard for me to get out of bed but that's because... it's just hard. But I'll get past it. I always get past things.
Everything will be okay.
I'm going to go have a drink. Who cares if I'm drinking alone.
Anthony and I went over to a friends house yesterday and ate lots of cheese and bread. I had goat cheese for the first time in my life. Who knew that goat chesse and marinara sauce on a piece of bread could be so good? Then Tony gave our friends massages which they seemed to thouroughly enjoy. Shitty that I still haven't gotten a massage with his new table, but whatev. Other people apparently come first.
Okay.... something else happy.
Oh! Since January is moving out of her place we get to have her couch, and her bookshelves, and maybe something else. Best part about it is that it's FREE! I'm thankful that they are being so generous with their things. We really need it.
My birthday is on Wednesday. I'm pretty excited about it. Anthony has the entire day planned out, and I'm supposed to be getting an epic present. Not sure what it is but I'm sure that I'll like it. He's a great gift picker. Going to Hard Knocks that day too. Birthday people are free all day! :) I haven't been to Hard Knocks since April so this trip is long overdue. And then Thursday is the day of the party. I kind of envisioned myself celebrating with the other people that I use to be close to, but... everything happens for a reason. It'll still be a good day anyway. Hopefully.
I have to give up my whole non-monogamous lifestyle. Well I'm not literally being forced to but in a way I sort of am. Boyfriend doesn't understand why I'd want to see other people. Has that whole "I'm not enough" thing going on. Tried to explain but it hasn't helped. Not something I want to do but what am I supposed to do leave him? He loves me a lot! And I love him as well. It's just something I'll just have to deal with I guess. I'll get over it. /shruggs.
About that whole routine thing it's sort of going okay. I've started exercising and kind of eating more. It's still really hard for me to get out of bed but that's because... it's just hard. But I'll get past it. I always get past things.
Everything will be okay.
I'm going to go have a drink. Who cares if I'm drinking alone.