long days
im counting down the days of my time in the great lakes, and as each day passes i come to terms that as much as i hated this place, i've accomplished so much. many great life long friends were made here, as well as a ultimatly important jump start to my future career in life and the navy. as of this day, i am a unofficial college graduate, having all my neccessary credits and school hours to have aquired my bachelors degree in computer sciences and electrical physics. good times, all in a few months of military intensive training... pfft as if staring at a blue computer screen for well over eight straight hours a day could be called a great education, the effects of not getting a great education while in the course could cause you much physically enduring pain in what we like to call PT in the military ( i.e. physical training with SEALs or other many burly and senior personel willing to dish it out to you ) i've come to relize that this freezing hell hole really isn't all that bad as i would on occassions bitch out about. on another note, i cannot stress how much i am excited to go to ingleside, texas for the next and final phase of my rate training. after this in depth course on all that is underwater explosives for four months, i will finally have prove my worth to go to sea. the sea, the fleet, seeing the world for all that its worth, and eventually pissing in all the major oceans in a drunken tradition my fore sailors have accomplish years before me. this is why i am a sailor in the United States Navy, for the thrills, spills, and near death experiances. maybe a beer here and there too ... :) every night.
on another setting of this longly over do post, i can't help but feel a great yearning to go back home. much i am missing of good old st petersburg, much of which is family tied. i miss my little stupid ass brother, i cannot stress how much i just want to go back home and give him a good old fashion navy PT... and to just see how the little runt has grown. ive missed so much in so little time... so much i couldn't be there for him. i couldnt imagine a life without one of my other brothers growing up, even if it was full of fights and bull shit, it was that that made us so much closer. -sigh- i miss my mother. god you get a deep feel for your loved ones you've never experiance unless you leave them for such a long period of time. not knowing what really could be going on.
as for my father. i couldn't tell you how much i despised his drunken, abusive, fouled mouth being before i left all throughout my childhood. i envy him for everything now. he alone made me the person i am and i couldn't ask for anything more from him than that. he's changed, it was an ever evolving being in him since the day i came back from the recruiters office. to see the only man you hated all your life, proud... never had i expected the man to be capable of such emotions to me, until then. its out, you can tell a crackle in someones voice even over the phone, and you know that his "cold" wasn't the reason. times change. people do too, given the circumstances, its only nature. we adapt unwillingly, and sometimes unknowingly. let this be a lesson learned and a lesson taught to you all, good does shine on those who wait. i'm still waiting in fact, no matter what we all are. that is life, it only gets better with time.
stay good, and take care everyone. the day will come when we may cross paths again... keep waiting
on another setting of this longly over do post, i can't help but feel a great yearning to go back home. much i am missing of good old st petersburg, much of which is family tied. i miss my little stupid ass brother, i cannot stress how much i just want to go back home and give him a good old fashion navy PT... and to just see how the little runt has grown. ive missed so much in so little time... so much i couldn't be there for him. i couldnt imagine a life without one of my other brothers growing up, even if it was full of fights and bull shit, it was that that made us so much closer. -sigh- i miss my mother. god you get a deep feel for your loved ones you've never experiance unless you leave them for such a long period of time. not knowing what really could be going on.
as for my father. i couldn't tell you how much i despised his drunken, abusive, fouled mouth being before i left all throughout my childhood. i envy him for everything now. he alone made me the person i am and i couldn't ask for anything more from him than that. he's changed, it was an ever evolving being in him since the day i came back from the recruiters office. to see the only man you hated all your life, proud... never had i expected the man to be capable of such emotions to me, until then. its out, you can tell a crackle in someones voice even over the phone, and you know that his "cold" wasn't the reason. times change. people do too, given the circumstances, its only nature. we adapt unwillingly, and sometimes unknowingly. let this be a lesson learned and a lesson taught to you all, good does shine on those who wait. i'm still waiting in fact, no matter what we all are. that is life, it only gets better with time.
stay good, and take care everyone. the day will come when we may cross paths again... keep waiting