Crazy stuff
Over the weekend my friend Meaghan died in a car accident. I haven't seen her in years, or talked to her in months, but she was a really really sweet girl, and I'm really sad that she's gone. She was only 21, she had just started dating a guy that made her really happy, and her brother was finally starting to get off drugs and clean himself up. I'm sad that she won't be around to help him out anymore, god knows he needs it.
I think there are a few reasons that I've been so upset about Meaghan. One is that a lot of shitty stuff has gone on the past few months, but I haven't really let myself be sad about any of it. It's almost like I think her death is a more legit excuse to be sad, so I'm just letting all the sad out now that I've been holding in this whole time.
Thinking about Meaghan makes me kind of re-evaluate my life. I think there are a lot of things I want to change.
I want to get back in shape so I can be more happy about how I look and feel, it has such a huge impact on my mood and my willingness to go out and do things.
Get out and do more things! Not so much sitting around the house watching TV. I want to go on more hikes, go out with friends, go ice skating, stuff like that.
Be more open to ideas. Like Kristin had mentioned going to Canada and staying with her friend and I'd just thought the whole thing was weird, but then later when I met her friend I freaking loved her, and it turns out we are practically soul mates hehe.
See my friends more, make more friends, be nicer in general. Make sure people know that I care about them.
BUT the number one most important thing I need is to GET MORE REST!! I am so tired lately, I feel like I never get any sleep.
I think there are a few reasons that I've been so upset about Meaghan. One is that a lot of shitty stuff has gone on the past few months, but I haven't really let myself be sad about any of it. It's almost like I think her death is a more legit excuse to be sad, so I'm just letting all the sad out now that I've been holding in this whole time.
Thinking about Meaghan makes me kind of re-evaluate my life. I think there are a lot of things I want to change.
I want to get back in shape so I can be more happy about how I look and feel, it has such a huge impact on my mood and my willingness to go out and do things.
Get out and do more things! Not so much sitting around the house watching TV. I want to go on more hikes, go out with friends, go ice skating, stuff like that.
Be more open to ideas. Like Kristin had mentioned going to Canada and staying with her friend and I'd just thought the whole thing was weird, but then later when I met her friend I freaking loved her, and it turns out we are practically soul mates hehe.
See my friends more, make more friends, be nicer in general. Make sure people know that I care about them.
BUT the number one most important thing I need is to GET MORE REST!! I am so tired lately, I feel like I never get any sleep.