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i will always find a way to procrastinate no matter what. i still haven't written my paper. i came home from work, picked my sister up from work, took a bath, played with random objects in my room and played dress up. finally came down here to get crackin and stumble upon this little thing and of course i simply can't resist. i really like the mood i'm in right now, a little too much, i think. remember being pure? not wanting to alter your constant state of mind by any means possible? oh well.
Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review."
[[[ok i changed it to the first paragraph, simply because i tend to start my entries with one word or something completely lame and redundant. actually, this past year was kind of lame and redundant, now that i look at it.]]]
2005 In Review
January:
so. i'm home again. it's cold, ugly, and i feel like shit. it was a great trip, i must say i thoroughly enjoyed myself in miami. being back here though, i don't know. the gray sky, twisted skeletal lifeless treetops, the streets, the people.. i feel like i'm going to burst into tears at any given moment. i feel them in my eyes. i did miss my dog and my car, but i could have used more time away from everything else. at least i got some though. i don't feel like being asleep and i don't feel like being awake. asleep is probably my best bet, though. i got four hours of sleep the night before last and none last night. FHKJSHDkjnsakaUWIOiU.
February:
meh. i am currently in the process of massivley expanding my cd collection. it's a tedious process. i've been a burning machine these past 24 hours. i feel accomplished and worth something. in a sense.
March:
and give a kiss to my motha
when i think about it, i am not a total waste of space. i get sort of discouraged when i think about how much i have worked and how little money i have saved, but i shouldn't use that to measure how much of my life is just wasteful, petty, sleepy nonsense.
April:
i just got home from work. my babygurl is home, finally. she's hobbling around, following me and whimpering and i have no idea what i can do for her. i gave her like six beggin strips and took her on a little walk outside and she peed a bunch of times and pooped. she has a huge blue bandage on that looks like a little sweater. i wish she would stop crying, the surgery went very well, but she's in a lot of pain. it's breaking my heart.
May:
skyyy rockets in flight, afternoon delight
the shore last weekend
douche
cock sackie!
my loves
mae
<3 oh est.
everything was closed on coney island
yes.
bah
June:
in the past two days i have overcome my laziness in many ways. and my last week of high school has finally commenced, it's all going to be over soon. friday was the
standing there not blinking. fun.
we put our uh! into it.
dude. we were obviously the hottest ones there.
it was a genuinley grand evening, i had so much more fun than i thought i was going to have. the last two proms were just, eh. i'm so glad i ended up going.
July:
my plan was to purchase a tape player, thinking it would be cheap because who the fuck listens to cassetts anymore? then i could have gotten a little adaptermabob. so i go to circuit city tonight and the tape player is like 90 bucks plus another 15 for the adapter so i was like fuuuuck that and just bought a new cd player with an auxilary outlet on it. it was expensive as fuck, but driving without music was HORRIBLE. it's so unnerving. me and my impulses. what ev, it put me in a good mood all night.
August:
so i'm not really feeling like going to work. i got a little sleep at least between 10 and 12 am, but they were chopping down a tree across the street so it was loud. fuck dude. oh well. i'm in a good mood.
September:
i'm at college. i really love it. i'm in a sad mood right now, probabaly for the first time since i've been here. which figures, because the only time i am writing in here is when i'm bitching and moaning. i don't like reality sometimes. i would rather just pretend.
October:
hey slut. i'm in florida. brian is at class and i just went to buy beer, so i am just cheeelin now waiting for him to come back. i love this. i wish every day could be this nice. damn the man. i feel kind of bad about missing class but whatever. if i didn't miss them to be here i would miss them anyway just to do something lame like sleep. we have like 4-6 excused absences per class, some teachers don't care, and tomorrow is rosh hashana so if i just tell them i'm a jew, tuesday won't even count towards the absences. score. it says so in the syllabus.
November:
today was halloween yo! i had a mid term this morning for the modern middle east. how mean to give us a mid-term on halloween. but it was fine, i had nothing to be afraid of.
December:
i am one twisted freaky bitch. i am in a good mood. after last night being spent doing things that were most definitely not what i should have been doing, which was writing my paper, i decided before going to bed at 4 that i needed to get a good night's sleep, i needed to see the light of day and do things that were starting to pile up. so i did. in order to do that i had to skip my classes this morning, but i feel that it was justified. in fact i feel like i am completely redeemed because i got lots of things done today.
Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review."
[[[ok i changed it to the first paragraph, simply because i tend to start my entries with one word or something completely lame and redundant. actually, this past year was kind of lame and redundant, now that i look at it.]]]
2005 In Review
January:
so. i'm home again. it's cold, ugly, and i feel like shit. it was a great trip, i must say i thoroughly enjoyed myself in miami. being back here though, i don't know. the gray sky, twisted skeletal lifeless treetops, the streets, the people.. i feel like i'm going to burst into tears at any given moment. i feel them in my eyes. i did miss my dog and my car, but i could have used more time away from everything else. at least i got some though. i don't feel like being asleep and i don't feel like being awake. asleep is probably my best bet, though. i got four hours of sleep the night before last and none last night. FHKJSHDkjnsakaUWIOiU.
February:
meh. i am currently in the process of massivley expanding my cd collection. it's a tedious process. i've been a burning machine these past 24 hours. i feel accomplished and worth something. in a sense.
March:
and give a kiss to my motha
when i think about it, i am not a total waste of space. i get sort of discouraged when i think about how much i have worked and how little money i have saved, but i shouldn't use that to measure how much of my life is just wasteful, petty, sleepy nonsense.
April:
i just got home from work. my babygurl is home, finally. she's hobbling around, following me and whimpering and i have no idea what i can do for her. i gave her like six beggin strips and took her on a little walk outside and she peed a bunch of times and pooped. she has a huge blue bandage on that looks like a little sweater. i wish she would stop crying, the surgery went very well, but she's in a lot of pain. it's breaking my heart.
May:
skyyy rockets in flight, afternoon delight
the shore last weekend
douche
cock sackie!
my loves
mae
<3 oh est.
everything was closed on coney island
yes.
bah
June:
in the past two days i have overcome my laziness in many ways. and my last week of high school has finally commenced, it's all going to be over soon. friday was the
standing there not blinking. fun.
we put our uh! into it.
dude. we were obviously the hottest ones there.
it was a genuinley grand evening, i had so much more fun than i thought i was going to have. the last two proms were just, eh. i'm so glad i ended up going.
July:
my plan was to purchase a tape player, thinking it would be cheap because who the fuck listens to cassetts anymore? then i could have gotten a little adaptermabob. so i go to circuit city tonight and the tape player is like 90 bucks plus another 15 for the adapter so i was like fuuuuck that and just bought a new cd player with an auxilary outlet on it. it was expensive as fuck, but driving without music was HORRIBLE. it's so unnerving. me and my impulses. what ev, it put me in a good mood all night.
August:
so i'm not really feeling like going to work. i got a little sleep at least between 10 and 12 am, but they were chopping down a tree across the street so it was loud. fuck dude. oh well. i'm in a good mood.
September:
i'm at college. i really love it. i'm in a sad mood right now, probabaly for the first time since i've been here. which figures, because the only time i am writing in here is when i'm bitching and moaning. i don't like reality sometimes. i would rather just pretend.
October:
hey slut. i'm in florida. brian is at class and i just went to buy beer, so i am just cheeelin now waiting for him to come back. i love this. i wish every day could be this nice. damn the man. i feel kind of bad about missing class but whatever. if i didn't miss them to be here i would miss them anyway just to do something lame like sleep. we have like 4-6 excused absences per class, some teachers don't care, and tomorrow is rosh hashana so if i just tell them i'm a jew, tuesday won't even count towards the absences. score. it says so in the syllabus.
November:
today was halloween yo! i had a mid term this morning for the modern middle east. how mean to give us a mid-term on halloween. but it was fine, i had nothing to be afraid of.
December:
i am one twisted freaky bitch. i am in a good mood. after last night being spent doing things that were most definitely not what i should have been doing, which was writing my paper, i decided before going to bed at 4 that i needed to get a good night's sleep, i needed to see the light of day and do things that were starting to pile up. so i did. in order to do that i had to skip my classes this morning, but i feel that it was justified. in fact i feel like i am completely redeemed because i got lots of things done today.