timeing is everything
i always mess everything up. every single relationship that i have been in over a year has come down to me choosing one person over another. the other person always ends up bitter, which ultimately leads to us not even being friends any more. whats worse, is every time i feel like i have made the wrong decision. i seem to always be chosing the wrong guy, or maybe i only think that it was the wrong guy because the relationships failed, and the other one wouldnt have worked out anyways, i really dont know.
abner wrote me a long letter and poem explaining everything, and it wasnt anything that i could have ever imagined. i really cant talk much aobut it, because i feel that it is too personal and should stay at least remotely between us (he hasnt told anyone else). and we are trying to work things out, but it was so unexpected for both of us that i just dont know if timing is right or not.
then there is another guy who i felt like i couldnt even get him to notice me two weeks ago. and he just asked me out.
i am so scared to get back together with Abner, but i know that i did really love him and still do (i dont think you ever fully stop loving someone). He has had so much shit in his life, and i dont want to be just another person that he cant trust.
but at the same time i worry that everything will just fall apart again with us and i will once again have been left chosing the wrong person. and how do i explain all of this to the other guy??? "um sorry, but i want to see how things with my ex turn out before i date you"? yeah something tells me that wont go over great.
and i thought i was finally happy with my single self. yeah. that lasted a long time.
abner wrote me a long letter and poem explaining everything, and it wasnt anything that i could have ever imagined. i really cant talk much aobut it, because i feel that it is too personal and should stay at least remotely between us (he hasnt told anyone else). and we are trying to work things out, but it was so unexpected for both of us that i just dont know if timing is right or not.
then there is another guy who i felt like i couldnt even get him to notice me two weeks ago. and he just asked me out.
i am so scared to get back together with Abner, but i know that i did really love him and still do (i dont think you ever fully stop loving someone). He has had so much shit in his life, and i dont want to be just another person that he cant trust.
but at the same time i worry that everything will just fall apart again with us and i will once again have been left chosing the wrong person. and how do i explain all of this to the other guy??? "um sorry, but i want to see how things with my ex turn out before i date you"? yeah something tells me that wont go over great.
and i thought i was finally happy with my single self. yeah. that lasted a long time.