Grrrrrr
I find it funny that in the past two days I have helped two people with breakups and have told them both "time heals all." That's the exact quote Laura gave me a few months ago when the Kristin-Robert thing first upset me. (I went through old journals and read a few. Always fun and depressing.) But, I think it's funny because here I am still a mess. Time is trying its best to heal... I'm a work in progress.
I know I haven't been a constant mess. I know this week just poses a lot of extra stress. I know this week is just the first of many weeks where I need to face the truth instead of just knowing about it.
God I'm glad I have good friends.
A tear for good luck.
I'm just sick of boys in general. I love them to death, but I don't think I'll ever love like I loved Robert. I don't think I'll ever put so much trust in a boy again. And, you know what, maybe I will. Right now, I'm just doubting it. Just like I don't really trust friends anymore.
Kristin was really a bitch to do what she did. No, I didn't have claim over him or anything of the sort. But she shouldn't have consoled me during the summer if she was going to hook up with him in the Fall. I'm sorry, that's not how it should work. And now I have a suspicion in the back of my head about all my friends. I'm more aware of their presence and I'm waiting for that moment when they screw me over. "I didn't mean it to happen." "I thought you would like to know, if it was me I would like to know."
YOU'RE A FUCKING WHORE.
I hope the sex is good. God knows I wouldn't know.
I think that hurts too. No, I don't know if he's having sex, but I have the big suspicion once again. And the fact that I was with him for over three years and I didn't share that with him, and she was probably with him for two minutes before she did.
I don't know if it was his main goal to stab me in the heart when he went after her, but he did.
I don't know if it was her main goal to stab ne in the back when she liked him back, but she did.
And that's the way life works. You're friends with people to see what you can get from them. What they have that you want, and how you can steal it.
I have nothing else to steal. I have a bruised heart and a broken spirit.
I think I'd like to keep it that way.
I just need a cuddle buddy. If I ordered one today, would he be delivered in time for Friday?
I know I haven't been a constant mess. I know this week just poses a lot of extra stress. I know this week is just the first of many weeks where I need to face the truth instead of just knowing about it.
God I'm glad I have good friends.
A tear for good luck.
I'm just sick of boys in general. I love them to death, but I don't think I'll ever love like I loved Robert. I don't think I'll ever put so much trust in a boy again. And, you know what, maybe I will. Right now, I'm just doubting it. Just like I don't really trust friends anymore.
Kristin was really a bitch to do what she did. No, I didn't have claim over him or anything of the sort. But she shouldn't have consoled me during the summer if she was going to hook up with him in the Fall. I'm sorry, that's not how it should work. And now I have a suspicion in the back of my head about all my friends. I'm more aware of their presence and I'm waiting for that moment when they screw me over. "I didn't mean it to happen." "I thought you would like to know, if it was me I would like to know."
YOU'RE A FUCKING WHORE.
I hope the sex is good. God knows I wouldn't know.
I think that hurts too. No, I don't know if he's having sex, but I have the big suspicion once again. And the fact that I was with him for over three years and I didn't share that with him, and she was probably with him for two minutes before she did.
I don't know if it was his main goal to stab me in the heart when he went after her, but he did.
I don't know if it was her main goal to stab ne in the back when she liked him back, but she did.
And that's the way life works. You're friends with people to see what you can get from them. What they have that you want, and how you can steal it.
I have nothing else to steal. I have a bruised heart and a broken spirit.
I think I'd like to keep it that way.
I just need a cuddle buddy. If I ordered one today, would he be delivered in time for Friday?