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Ugh, I haven't cried in ages.
Everything just feels a bit hopeless. It seems like saving money is taking forever, and to be honest the thought of buying a place is incredibly daunting anyway. I don't know what I'll be able to afford, but it probably won't be nice.
I've also had my heart set on something, that I knew was unrealistic from the start, and now I think it seems even more so. I need to stop overinvesting myself in things. I get too excited about things and fool myself that once I've got it/done it everything will be better. It happens every time I make some big purchase: My guitar, my phone, my computer... and it's always a let-down. I'm scared it'll be the same with buying a house. I think I do it emotionally too. I get too attached too easily and I start fooling myself about things. I wish I could have something just come to me easily. I know that nothing worth having comes easily, but couldn't it, just once?
Please?
Everything just feels a bit hopeless. It seems like saving money is taking forever, and to be honest the thought of buying a place is incredibly daunting anyway. I don't know what I'll be able to afford, but it probably won't be nice.
I've also had my heart set on something, that I knew was unrealistic from the start, and now I think it seems even more so. I need to stop overinvesting myself in things. I get too excited about things and fool myself that once I've got it/done it everything will be better. It happens every time I make some big purchase: My guitar, my phone, my computer... and it's always a let-down. I'm scared it'll be the same with buying a house. I think I do it emotionally too. I get too attached too easily and I start fooling myself about things. I wish I could have something just come to me easily. I know that nothing worth having comes easily, but couldn't it, just once?
Please?