Haven't written in a long time..
I got one of those "someone tried to log into your LJ. was it you?" emails. It prompted me to take a look, because.. basically, I haven't looked at it since I last posted. My last post was April 15, 2013. I was worried about breathing tubes and feeding tubes and watching my Mom suffer. She died in her sleep 12 days later. It's been almost 9 months now? I felt the familiar stabbing in my chest when I read my journal posts. The .. just .. ridiculous impotent rage. It still guts me.
The holidays sucked. I was pretty depressed. I laid in bed for a couple days "sick" and cried a little. I'm determined that this year will be less shitty. Realistically, I don't know if I can handle another year like last year.
In other (less pathetic) news, I've been writing a lot lately. I'm writing a tacky romance novel. I feel good about it so far. Gonna try to send it to Harlequin. *crosses fingers*.. It's decent so far. Something I'd like to read. I think that says a lot.
The holidays sucked. I was pretty depressed. I laid in bed for a couple days "sick" and cried a little. I'm determined that this year will be less shitty. Realistically, I don't know if I can handle another year like last year.
In other (less pathetic) news, I've been writing a lot lately. I'm writing a tacky romance novel. I feel good about it so far. Gonna try to send it to Harlequin. *crosses fingers*.. It's decent so far. Something I'd like to read. I think that says a lot.