Concerned Best Friend
My best friend is known to have somewhat of a drug problem. She has confessed to me that she only feels herself when shes high, which explains why she smokes pot everyday. It is a problem, she has told me that she can't stop unless she replaces her addiction with another one, preferably sex. However, a couple weeks ago she did E two days in a row, had a terrible comedown, and swore she would never do it again; She did it last night. Again, she had a terrible comedown, but she told me that she was facing way bigger problems. The women in her family have this condition where the uterus falls into the vagina (Uterine Prolapse), and after taking E the other night, my bestie mounted some random guy and had extremely violent sex. Now she feels like her uterus fell, and shes bleeding and is in extreme discomfort. I've convinced her to get a Pap Smear. I mean its the best thing for her, expecting it to go away is the worst thing she can do. What if it gets worse? What if its something serious? What if its nothing and the stress of not knowing just continues to build? So, shes going to get it checked out. However, the drug problem still remains. Depression runs in her family, and she relies on drugs to feel happy because shes convinced that shes never been happy in her life. She is relying on drugs to make her happy and to numb whatever pain shes feeling. Now, this is a friend that I would do anything for, and I'm trying to convince her that her logic is wrong and that she should do things for herself to make herself happy. I'm doing a pretty good job at coaxing her through this. I really feel like I have a career in this kind of thing. I can't wait until I'm finally a psychiatrist. She has an appointment to see a therapist on Thursday, which I believe is a step in the right direction. What I'm worried about is that she thinks that the therapist will solve all of the problems for her. The bottom line is that she needs to want to change, and needs to do it herself. A therapist is merely a support system to help initiate the change, but she needs to learn to have some willpower and some determination to nip this in the butt and to get her life back. She just told her mom that she smokes weed everyday and that shes not going to use anymore. I mean its a step, but I doubt that shes going to keep up with it. Its just going to lead to more lying to herself and others. No wonder she feels estranged from her family and the world. She's living a double life. I'm so worried for her. I'm worried that E is going to be her new addiction and then for whats to follow that. She says she won't stop, that she can't, that she doesn't see a point to her life. She's thinking school isn't for her. She's asking her parents if she can drop out. She's failing 3 classes now. I hope she finds her way. Until then, I'm just a deeply concerned best friend.