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holy shit. i havent posted in this thing in forever. so much has been going on .. my life has really been private alot of late.
FRiENDS;; i dont tell people shit anymore because i've been burned by SO many of my close friends recently. fucking sucks. thought i culd trust so many people && i couldnt. lets just say after me and rob broke up .. some of close friends, well i thought at the time were, hungout with him behind my back. fucked up. i dont trust girls for the fucking life of me, i never will anymore. nicole goldsmith & nicole kenny are the only two people i can EVER trust anymore. it sucks, when everything went wrong with me and rob, i thought i had a few girls there for me and it made everything better, but shit went down the drain && they became madd shady. now look. but u live and u learn. i've been getting MADD close with my girl eden lately. SHE IS A GIRL I CAN TRUST. let me tell you .. i've been chillen with her for like maybe 3 weeks now && i feel like i can tell her my life story & she wont judge me .. its awesome. when i was seriously about to DIE, she has been there for EVERYTHING.
LOVE LiFE;; im still single. me and rob were doing really good, chillen almost everyday and than madd drama happened && shit got crazy. we basically havent talked that much of late .. but slowly things are starting to get back to normal. the past month ive never been more depressed and upset, EVER. i felt like dying so many times recently. omg.. my life has just been soooo shitty. one day things with me and him are great && the next .. its fucking bullshit .. mainly because i told the WRONG people shit && it backfired in my face .. but lately .. IVE LEARNED. hey, thats what life is all about neeways .. LIVING AND LEARNING. and ive dont ALOT of that lately .. but im still single && me and him are slowly working on things. who knows though .. everything sucks && i really just dont want to even talk about relationships .. my life has become madd personal lately. but whatever.
IM 20! yup my birthday was last wednesday && i have to admit, put aside all the drama thats been going on with EVERYTHING .. it was a good day. and im happy. because i needed a good day more than anything. alot of ppl i thought were there for me, on my birthday proved that they werent worth my time anymore && other ones really stepped up to the plate && showed me a true friendship. since ive been 20 .. im obviously not a TEENAGER nemore .. im becoming an adult && ive had to make ALOT of adult decisions in the past week. like ive been saying .. ive cut ALOT of friends out of my life of late .. my decision. im tired of the drama from dumb ass bitches. all i really am dealing with in life lately is having me and rob back together. my heart just wont give up && i know its meant to be. and all ive been worried about is us. on my big bday .. i got a NEW DIGITAL CAMERA :) so yeah .. i have madd pictures i culd post on here .. but im not about to sit on livejournal for the next 3 hrs .. so ull have to wait for another entry
SCHOOL; yeah school is basically non existant for me. i havent gone at all .. im prob going to fail. and im not the type of person to just give up and say fuck it but seriously, ive been SO stressed .. beyond fuckin belief. ive had no sleep. ive been crying. its been a bad couple of weeks .. but lke i said .. i have my good days && i have my good days. it really depends lately .. its just my bad days are always HORRIBLE days. ugh .. i just wish life would be back to normal. :( but yeah so school.. im prob going to fail this semester .. i havent gone at all lately but my classes end basically in 2 weeks or so.
WORK;; ive been working like a mexican. over 40 hrs every week. its seriously been amazing though. work has been my escape from life. it keeps my mind off all the shit thats been going on lately. i love working. ive even been asking to come in on a day off .. its sickening. but ive been making madd money && the holidays are soo close .. i need the money. but i love work lately. :)
basically thats about it. like ive said .. my life is madd personal lately .. i cant stand people and their fucking big ass mouths they have to run .. its been fuckin me over so much lately && like i said i basically cant even count on 1 hand the amount of people i can trust anymore, which is sad but thats life. so yeah .. i culd post 402348823987389213 million pictures ive taken in the past month with my new amazing camera buttt i have a life tonite && even tho its 12am, me and bree i think are hitting up wawa because thats how we do :) so ill post an entry of just pictures soon .. wen my life isnt crazy.
FRiENDS;; i dont tell people shit anymore because i've been burned by SO many of my close friends recently. fucking sucks. thought i culd trust so many people && i couldnt. lets just say after me and rob broke up .. some of close friends, well i thought at the time were, hungout with him behind my back. fucked up. i dont trust girls for the fucking life of me, i never will anymore. nicole goldsmith & nicole kenny are the only two people i can EVER trust anymore. it sucks, when everything went wrong with me and rob, i thought i had a few girls there for me and it made everything better, but shit went down the drain && they became madd shady. now look. but u live and u learn. i've been getting MADD close with my girl eden lately. SHE IS A GIRL I CAN TRUST. let me tell you .. i've been chillen with her for like maybe 3 weeks now && i feel like i can tell her my life story & she wont judge me .. its awesome. when i was seriously about to DIE, she has been there for EVERYTHING.
LOVE LiFE;; im still single. me and rob were doing really good, chillen almost everyday and than madd drama happened && shit got crazy. we basically havent talked that much of late .. but slowly things are starting to get back to normal. the past month ive never been more depressed and upset, EVER. i felt like dying so many times recently. omg.. my life has just been soooo shitty. one day things with me and him are great && the next .. its fucking bullshit .. mainly because i told the WRONG people shit && it backfired in my face .. but lately .. IVE LEARNED. hey, thats what life is all about neeways .. LIVING AND LEARNING. and ive dont ALOT of that lately .. but im still single && me and him are slowly working on things. who knows though .. everything sucks && i really just dont want to even talk about relationships .. my life has become madd personal lately. but whatever.
IM 20! yup my birthday was last wednesday && i have to admit, put aside all the drama thats been going on with EVERYTHING .. it was a good day. and im happy. because i needed a good day more than anything. alot of ppl i thought were there for me, on my birthday proved that they werent worth my time anymore && other ones really stepped up to the plate && showed me a true friendship. since ive been 20 .. im obviously not a TEENAGER nemore .. im becoming an adult && ive had to make ALOT of adult decisions in the past week. like ive been saying .. ive cut ALOT of friends out of my life of late .. my decision. im tired of the drama from dumb ass bitches. all i really am dealing with in life lately is having me and rob back together. my heart just wont give up && i know its meant to be. and all ive been worried about is us. on my big bday .. i got a NEW DIGITAL CAMERA :) so yeah .. i have madd pictures i culd post on here .. but im not about to sit on livejournal for the next 3 hrs .. so ull have to wait for another entry
SCHOOL; yeah school is basically non existant for me. i havent gone at all .. im prob going to fail. and im not the type of person to just give up and say fuck it but seriously, ive been SO stressed .. beyond fuckin belief. ive had no sleep. ive been crying. its been a bad couple of weeks .. but lke i said .. i have my good days && i have my good days. it really depends lately .. its just my bad days are always HORRIBLE days. ugh .. i just wish life would be back to normal. :( but yeah so school.. im prob going to fail this semester .. i havent gone at all lately but my classes end basically in 2 weeks or so.
WORK;; ive been working like a mexican. over 40 hrs every week. its seriously been amazing though. work has been my escape from life. it keeps my mind off all the shit thats been going on lately. i love working. ive even been asking to come in on a day off .. its sickening. but ive been making madd money && the holidays are soo close .. i need the money. but i love work lately. :)
basically thats about it. like ive said .. my life is madd personal lately .. i cant stand people and their fucking big ass mouths they have to run .. its been fuckin me over so much lately && like i said i basically cant even count on 1 hand the amount of people i can trust anymore, which is sad but thats life. so yeah .. i culd post 402348823987389213 million pictures ive taken in the past month with my new amazing camera buttt i have a life tonite && even tho its 12am, me and bree i think are hitting up wawa because thats how we do :) so ill post an entry of just pictures soon .. wen my life isnt crazy.