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Allow me to complian for a bit, if that's alright...and don't judge me on my complaints and say "wow, this girl claims to be a Christian". I don't need that bullcrap thrown @ me...
My grandmother is getting on my last nerve. Everything she says and does makes me cringe, and makes me even that more excited for next summer to come when I leave for college. It makes my mother upset when my grandmother and I argue because I always reassure them that "I will be gone by next summer...don't worry about it". Like, just yesterday my baby cousin is over, with lip gloss. My dog loves lip gloss, lipstick...it's cuz I let her kiss me all the time, she likes the taste. Stupidly, she leaves the lip gloss on the floor and my dog grabs it, so my grandmother reaches under the couch and tries to grab it off of her, and she SNAPS!! So my grandmother's screaming up and down that she's going to throw my dog out, this that and the other thing, and I flip out on her. My dog is my baby, like, don't say that! So I put my two cents in, and walked over to the couch, sweetly talked to my puppy, pat her on the head, and slipped the lip gloss out with no problems. So my grandmother's sitting there the whole time, "Yeah, shes' gonna sweet talk that thing!" blah blah blah. Then she starts crying..."THIS IS MY HOUSE TOO YOU KNOW!" and goes on about that. Then she throws the lip gloss @ me (which was kinda funny). And I look @ her and said, "Real mature..." Then she flips, crying, saying she didn't meant to hit me, she was aiming for the stairs, YEAH RIGHT. The stairs are so over, clear shot. W/e. And now, she's flipping about me on the computer writing in an online journal, because "Montel (that talk show guy) was talking about how these girls, 17, have guys stalking them and everything because of it!" and on, and on, and on. I just rolled my eyes and told her "Yeah, gram, it's gonna happen to me, I promise." So she goes, "Well that's what Montel said!" and like, backing him up like he's some kind of God, "Montel knows everything, right?" psh. ANd my grandmother isn't even THAT OLD. She's 70! But she looks like, she's like...55 or something, swear. UGH! I want out, really.
Chris keeps asking when she's going to die, (yes, i know, it's really awkward for my friends to joke about that, but it is funny when you hear it from him), because she won't let him spend the night anymore. Like, my mother doesn't care, we look @ Chris like he's just "One of the girls" because when it comes down to it, he really is! My grandmother needs to lighten up, way bad.
I feel as though I say too much. When I get excited about something, I give far too many details. Which is why I feel that AE Chris isn't calling me. He didn't want to get "Too attached..." because he already was, and he's leaving for college...so he distanced himself from me, until he called to tell me what was up. A few days later he picked me up, & we were off to south park.. Which was stupid because he looked over at me and asked if I brought a blanket, and I just looked at him with a blank stare like, "Does it look like I did?" So, he laughed it off, and we pulled into Wal-Mart and bought a "cozy-throw" blanket. It was cute. He really wanted the "Fantastic Four" but I wasn't about to lay on a fleece blanket with cartoon characters on them. (he was just joking anyways). We get out to south park, and pull up in a really big grassy area in a secluded spot, it was nice. We saw some dear that walked by, and THAT was too cute. 4 babies 'n a mama. We laid back and looked @ the sky, and talked for a good 4 hours. We saw three shooting stars and he poured out his heart to me (speaking of me saying too much? wow, I know his whole life story by now! I'm not saying I told him too much, I just mean, his friends). He told me he wanted to go to church with me, that made me feel good. He's such a sweet guy, so gorgeous. Big silver eyes, swear they're silver, with honor colored rings around it. He's a good 6'2, and built to a T. (he invited me to go to the gym with him because he goes lifting 5 days a week, but he'd made me look stupid, lol). He's tan, and dirty blonde-ish hair. It's funny because I like guys with dark hair, dark eyes better. He has such a great cuddly personality. Sweet as ever. I asked Brian last night when his last day was down at AE, he said it was that day...when he leaves for college, I'm still not sure yet. But a few girls I work with, went to school with him, and we talk about him constantly...sure enough, everything we say gets back to him, and he's going to get pushed away, because he "doesn't want that attachment". But he told me there'll always be an emotional attachment to eachother no matter what, and that's what we're sacrificing with our friendship, and when he leaves.
Adam Hills 'n Britt Jones are coming to church with me on Sunday. Good stuff? I think so. Adam wants to check out different churches. We were all talking about getting together for Aquire the Fire and not going with our churches, but getting our friends together 'n going as a group that way. When I was on the phone with Brendan Mazzie, I suggested that to him, and he was all for it too. So it'll be us, a chaperone of course, or a few, I don't know. I really want my mother to go and experience it. I talk about it every year, but she's yet to understand what it is. David wants to come up and visit sometime (@ least that's how it came off to me as) so if anything, I suggest he comes in April/May for it. Seriously, like, I'm determined to get about 30 people with us, lol.
Well, Bryan's only here 'till Sunday, 'n he wants me to go running with him out @ South Park. I gotta go get ready, and I highly doubt i'll be able to keep up with a Marine, lol. BUT I WILL TRY FOR HIM! Oh, and another thing that's tickin' me off? Bryan's big brother, Mike, he's 23, right? Bryan's 20. Bryan went out to make a life for himself, and me and bryan were talking about this last night when we were driving home from the mall. Bryan says, "Man, MIke needs to get his act together, and stop acting like a little kid and living for the weekends like we did when we were younger, and start living for next month...next year...stop dating little girls..." we came to the conclusion that he can only date younger girls because they're used to dating guys who still live @ home with their moms. NO SERIOUSLY! Bryan even said it! "Yeah, Mike's probably like...Alright guys, you can come over, my mom's not home!" Bryan figured that Mike would look @ what he's doing, and motivate him more, when in reality, it's just making him depressed and he's not doing a darn thing except for working @ pizza hut & hooters. He's need motivated, and if that's not motivating him, then I don't know what will. His girlfriend sure isn't...and when you're in a relationship with someone, like I said before, they need to keep your best interest in mind, and she's not doing that, she's bringing him down, and that makes Bryan even more mad. Ugh...stress. Off to run.