Dear LiveJournal, please let me vent...
I spent a lot of my day thinking today. I woke up and finished The Perks of Being A Wallflower, and it totally gave me a new perspective on life. If you read it, maybe you'll think differently, but at certain parts I could related to the main character. In the past year I have lost 3 main people in my life, and at times I feel really depressed because I don't have a lot of close friends in this town anymore. I'm the home-body. I don't like to party, I don't like to hang out in big groups, I'm really nice I guess but I just don't like to be involved in huge social scenes.
My big brother, my best friend, Eric Ventura was sent away due to a problem that he needed help with. He called me today and I swear I have never been happier in my life. The last time I talked to him was about maybe 3 months ago. It felt so good to hear his voice. He is doing so much better now and finally he has joy when he speaks to me. I tried to tell him what's been going on, but in all reality, not a lot has been going on with me. I'm going to look after him, I love him, he's part of my family. Come home to me Eric.
My boyfriend left me in March and moved to Georgia. Visiting him was one of the best vacations I have ever made. He is so sweet and I can't imagine being without him. I cannot wait till he comes home this summer and we can spend even more time together. Yes, we've decided to maintain a long distance relationship across the country. A lot of people have told me that I'm only sixteen and that I don't know what I'm doing, but trust me, we know exactly what we're doing. We're going to make it, despite what you think. What we have is different and it's original. For once in my life, I can be myself. I can fuck around and he doesn't care. We act like we're 5 years old. We finish each other's sentences, I'm totally not even kidding. The whole entire trip, finishing each others' sentences and saying "I WAS JUST GOING TO SAY THAT WHAT THE HELL." His mom says we're two peas in a pod. We're so cute it's disgusting ;]. Come home to me Austin.
Big sister. Best friend. Sing-a-long partner. Apple of my god damn eye. Marisa Silva. We might as well be joined at the hip. She is the funniest girl I have ever met and we're too much a like, but that's a good thing. She moved to Irvine to go to school in August and my life honestly changed dramatically. From hanging out with my best friend every freakin' day to coming home and being bored. We spent the entire summer driving up and down the central coast fucking around and singing our hearts out. Not even speaking to each other during our drives, just singing and knowing that that was enough. I miss her everyday of my life and probably talk to her everyday. We tell each other the most random stuff and we have coordinated dance moves to every NFG song out there, it's a sight to be witnessed. Rissy, I want you to know that I love you and you'll always be my bestest friend. Thank you for taking me under your wing even though I was 2 years younger than you. We're the sweetest of the sweet, the cutest of the cute, we're the ultimate. Don't forget that. I'M COMING TO YOU SOON!
I don't care if no one reads this. It felt good. My depression has lifted. And the only thing that keeps me going is that one day soon I will be able to see you all again. I love you three with all my heart and I'd do anything for all of you. I miss you...
My big brother, my best friend, Eric Ventura was sent away due to a problem that he needed help with. He called me today and I swear I have never been happier in my life. The last time I talked to him was about maybe 3 months ago. It felt so good to hear his voice. He is doing so much better now and finally he has joy when he speaks to me. I tried to tell him what's been going on, but in all reality, not a lot has been going on with me. I'm going to look after him, I love him, he's part of my family. Come home to me Eric.
My boyfriend left me in March and moved to Georgia. Visiting him was one of the best vacations I have ever made. He is so sweet and I can't imagine being without him. I cannot wait till he comes home this summer and we can spend even more time together. Yes, we've decided to maintain a long distance relationship across the country. A lot of people have told me that I'm only sixteen and that I don't know what I'm doing, but trust me, we know exactly what we're doing. We're going to make it, despite what you think. What we have is different and it's original. For once in my life, I can be myself. I can fuck around and he doesn't care. We act like we're 5 years old. We finish each other's sentences, I'm totally not even kidding. The whole entire trip, finishing each others' sentences and saying "I WAS JUST GOING TO SAY THAT WHAT THE HELL." His mom says we're two peas in a pod. We're so cute it's disgusting ;]. Come home to me Austin.
Big sister. Best friend. Sing-a-long partner. Apple of my god damn eye. Marisa Silva. We might as well be joined at the hip. She is the funniest girl I have ever met and we're too much a like, but that's a good thing. She moved to Irvine to go to school in August and my life honestly changed dramatically. From hanging out with my best friend every freakin' day to coming home and being bored. We spent the entire summer driving up and down the central coast fucking around and singing our hearts out. Not even speaking to each other during our drives, just singing and knowing that that was enough. I miss her everyday of my life and probably talk to her everyday. We tell each other the most random stuff and we have coordinated dance moves to every NFG song out there, it's a sight to be witnessed. Rissy, I want you to know that I love you and you'll always be my bestest friend. Thank you for taking me under your wing even though I was 2 years younger than you. We're the sweetest of the sweet, the cutest of the cute, we're the ultimate. Don't forget that. I'M COMING TO YOU SOON!
I don't care if no one reads this. It felt good. My depression has lifted. And the only thing that keeps me going is that one day soon I will be able to see you all again. I love you three with all my heart and I'd do anything for all of you. I miss you...