02/17/06 // Coordinator!Envy and Transmutey!Ed
Who: Coordinator!Envy and Transmutey!Ed
When: 02/17/06
Rating: PG
Category: Fluffy Romance
Summary: Ren and Ed go off to the castle for their vacation. Ed tries to remember their wedding, there's some minor angst, and then utter ridiculousness.
T!Ed: *is wandering around outside in the arboretum dressed up in his clothing from the wedding, crown perched on his head, and hums the wedding march to himself, coming up on the wrong side of the pavillion from where he had actually walked, thinking he's got it right*
C!Envy: *comes up the stairs into the hallway outside the arboretum, glancing in and stopping to watch in a sort of morbid fascination*
T!Ed: *doesn't notice Ren and stops in the center of the pavillion, looking around with his brow furrowed, trying to remember*
C!Envy: *leans against the doorframe* We were facing the other way.
T!Ed: *jumps, startled* Oh! *glances at him, blushing* Oh, we were?
C!Envy: *smiles a rueful apology* Mmhm. The chairs were there, and we came in from the side door. *points to indicate*
T!Ed: Hmm... *turns to face the right direction, scrutinizing the door, then sighs* I still don't remember it...
C!Envy: *shifts away from the doorframe, going to him* Do not beat yourself up about it, pretty. Just give it time.
T!Ed: *frowns* I'm not... I mean, I just want to remember, you know? It was probably one of the most important days of my life, but I can't.
C!Envy: And you are worried about it, which might be why it is so difficult to bring back. *smiles sadly, reaching to put arms around him*
T!Ed: Yeah, I know... *leans against him* Maybe it'll come back on it's own, then, or I could always talk to the other people that were there.
C!Envy: Mmhm. *strokes his hair, watching over his shoulder the slow snowfall outside the glass* You already have spoken to Clara, correct? She should remember it well.
T!Ed: ...I don't think she would want to talk much after she finds out what we did to the cake. *giggles to himself* Though it seems so pointless I can remember something after the wedding and not the wedding itself.
C!Envy: *laughs, kissing his cheek* Well there is no need to tell her that. *shrugs* Something so familiar may just be easier to remember. *smirks a bit*
T!Ed: Aw, but her expression would be hilarious~ *gives him the puppy eyes and grins* That's probably true... And from what I remember, I've done it a lot. *blushes faintly*
C!Envy: Poor Clara. *grins back, laughing again* 'A lot' would be one term, yes...
T!Ed: *snuggles against him with a shrug* I was stupid when I was younger. About the only explaination I have for it.
C!Envy: *looks at him incredulously* Do you actually regret doing such things now?
T!Ed: Not with you! *sticks his tongue out* With being a whore or whatever, I mean. You know, back before I met you.
C!Envy: No, I know that's what you meant. You had better not regret it with me. *wrinkles his nose back at him teasingly before sobering a bit* I guess, before- before you died, you never seemed to regret it. It just seemed to be part of you. But... it seems almost as if that was a different lifetime for you.
T!Ed: I still feel like what happened to me before I died happened to someone else. I can remember now, but it still feels... strange. *shrugs* It didn't seem to happen to me the other times, I died, though. But then I wasn't brought back those times either. I feel sorry for the person I was, you know? That he did such things, even though I'm not much better...
C!Envy: *nods once, thinking quietly for a little while* I never pitied you, I guess I have no patience for pity. But it saddens me, knowing what you had to go through just to survive. You are so young, I often forget that. And I disagree- I believe you have actually matured in some ways since you died. You are better. *smiles sheepishly* Well, that and you will never need to worry about such things as prostitution or anything again for money.
T!Ed: *laughs ligthly* You're just biased because I'm part homunculus. *grins faintly and kisses his cheek quickly* I'm glad that I don't have to return to any of that or that you never pitied me... It probably wouldn't have done me any good at the time. Still, though... How I was before I died just seems like... the other boy. Someone I knew before they just left. It's still really weird thinking that was me actually doing all of those things and not someone else, even though I don't have to do them anymore.
C!Envy: It is really odd, isn't it? *smiles at the kiss, holding him close* You were quite different, but you are still my Edward. Sometimes I feel as if none of it ever happened.
T!Ed: *presses closer happily* I'm glad, then... I know I've changed, but hopefully not by too much.
C!Envy: *shakes his head, smiling contentedly* No, not too much. I think it feels like more to you, probably because of the memories. But to me, you are just the same, only perhaps a bit more honest about your emotions and such.
T!Ed: That's probably a step up at least, though, right? *grins briefly* Everyone else has said I've been about the same too. I do wonder sometimes if they're just saying that to make me feel better, but... if they are, there's not much I can do about it. *shrugs*
C!Envy: No, I don't think so. At least, Clara would be honest. I cannot imaging Vengeance ever doing anything so silly, either. Who else did you talk to? *grins back* Besides, it's the truth. Personally, I am just enjoying having you back with me.
T!Ed: Well Alfons, of course, but he seemed fine with me the way I was. The dipshit, but that's, you know, the dipshit. *snerks faintly* There was also another Alphonse, some jerk who I remember used to beat me up regularly... *rolls his eyes* And - and Hei...
C!Envy: *laughs softly til he mentions Hei* ...You have spoken to him recently?
T!Ed: I haven't talked to him since the day after I died... *shakes his head* He, um, didn't seem very well...
C!Envy: *bites his lip, nodding slowly* I have heard nothing of him since I have been back.
T!Ed: I don't know where he went either... At the time, I - I don't think I really cared. I couldn't remember him at all and he did seem alright physically, so... I don't know. I just hope he's okay.
C!Envy: Do you remember much about him now?
T!Ed: That he's my friend and we used to drink a lot together. And that he was there when I died, obviously.
C!Envy: *frowns faintly, staring at the falling snow without really seeing it* He was one of your best friends.
T!Ed: Do you think he hates me because I couldn't remember him? *bites his lip, shifting nervously*
C!Envy: *shakes his head* No, I doubt it. He saw what really happened. I do not think there is any way he could hold that against you. It's me he hates.
T!Ed: I'm sorry... *reaches for his hand* When we go back, if I can find him, maybe I can talk to him or something...
C!Envy: No, no. I deserve it. *laces their fingers with a distracted smile* I am quite willing to admit when I have done wrong and deserve such action taken against me. But you should still talk to him, just for yourself.
T!Ed: *squeezes his hand, smiling a little* I will... It doesn't seem like I have very many friends so I may as well not lose the few I do, you know? *shudders* I'm still so grateful I can't remember what happened when I died...
C!Envy: Better to have a few real ones than a lot of fake ones. *hugs him tighter, nuzzling his cheek comfortingly* It was... unpleasant.
T!Ed: So I've been told... *presses closer unconsciously, arms wrapped around him*
C!Envy: *murmuring against his ear, running a hand soothingly over his back* I love you so, so much. I am so grateful I got you back, it is more than I deserve.
T!Ed: *nuzzles against his cheek, eyes closed* You deserve a lot, beautiful. I'm so glad that I get to spend more time with you now.
C!Envy: *glows faintly with a small, self-conscious laugh* You flatter me. I am glad, as well.
T!Ed: *chuckles and pokes him lightly in the side* You deserve to be flattered. You're the most wonderful, caring, sweet husband in the world~ *grins, kissing him softly*
C!Envy: *laughs just before kissing back, trying not to blush* And you are the most wonderful, forgiving. *grins* So are you impressed by your castle? Or had you remembered it well enough already?
T!Ed: *blushes* Incredibly impressed, actually. I remembered some of it but not much until I got here. *smiles shyly* It's absolutely wonderful, and I can't believe you got something like this for me...
C!Envy: *laughs, enjoying his reaction* It was the least I could do. ...And I mean that literally. You will probably never know the extent of your aquired wealth through marrying me. *grins haughtily* Though I am glad you like it. Do you remember the rose garden?
T!Ed: ...No, I probably won't ever know it. And I still feel bad that you would spend this much on me! You spoil me, you do. *blushes more, ducking his head with a laugh* Faintly... We could go find it~?
C!Envy: Oh, shush. I am ridiculously wealthy and you are my husband. I am allowed to dote. And spoil. And lavish. *ruffles fingers through his hair playfully* Sure, though it will be under who knows how much snow this time of year.
T!Ed: Well... then dote and spoil and lavish away. *bats at his hands, grinning* Oh, that's right...
C!Envy: *sniffs primly* I think I will, thank you.~ *laughs and rolls his eyes* Looked out the windows lately? *points at the other three quarters of the room, which is entirely glass, with a smug grin*
T!Ed: ...I was distracted with recreating the wedding, thank you very much. I even got dressed up for it and everything~ *sniffs aloofily*
C!Envy: ...I noticed. *glances over him amusedly* You seem to remember what you were wearing alright.
T!Ed: It was the only thing that looked remotely wedding-ish in my closet here. The rest of my clothing is nice, too, though~
C!Envy: Yes, I think you were doing well in singlehandedly financing the seamstresses of the local village. *smiles teasingly*
T!Ed: I like my clothes, what can I say. *smiles smugly*
C!Envy: *rolls his eyes* We are going to need more closet space.
T!Ed: *smiles sweetly* You could always get me another castle for wardrobe purposes.
C!Envy: I will look into it.
T!Ed: I was kidding, you know.
C!Envy: So was I. *tries not to smirk*
T!Ed: ...You, sir, are an insufferable asshole. *grins*
C!Envy: *smiles pretty* Seven centuries of practice, my dear.
T!Ed: So I've noticed, lovely. *smirks* You know, there was something I was wondering, though...
C!Envy: What's that?
T!Ed: How did you find this dimension in the first place? Was it just through all of the switching you do?
C!Envy: Mmhm. I cannot really explain the theory behind the dimensional shifts... *thinks a moment* The easiest way to say it is that I just sort of... let myself drift and there are little, um... blips, I guess. Little things I sense when I am near a dimension and then I let it pull me in. If I know which one it is, it is easy to direct my ending location. ...And that all happens in about two and a half seconds.
T!Ed: Hmm... *nods, thinking for a moment* Is it easy to do all of that? I mean, I know you've done it for a few hundred years already, but when you started out was it? The whole letting yourself drift thing. I wouldn't mind trying it if I could...
C!Envy: *shakes his head* Oh, no. At first, I had to constantly will myself from panicking and getting stuck. And it was uncomfortable. The sensation is so strange- you should know just from coming with me.
T!Ed: Yeah, I know... *shrugs* What if I try changing dimensions when you start off, though? Just to see if I could. If I do that, maybe it'll be easier when I start out and then I can just start changing them on my own or something...
C!Envy: *frowns* I don't know... It could be very dangerous for you. You are still mostly human. The Gate, it could... *bites his lip*
T!Ed: Could what? *shrugs* I've been through it before, and maybe it won't notice me anymore, what with being part homunculus.
C!Envy: *shakes his head* I do not trust it. The whole idea worries me.
T!Ed: I'll be fine, though. *looks at him, biting his lip* What can it do to me now?
C!Envy: Everything? Take you, use you, take parts of you again, or just erase you completely! This is the Gate, Edward! It dictates everything here- I am lucky it even lets me pass the way it does. *fidgeting with his hands* I do not want to lose you again for something so stupid and easy to avoid.
T!Ed: *cringes faintly, glancing at him* But I've gotten by it before without it doing anything to me... It only took parts from me because I did stupid things when I was kid, and all it did the second time was send me to Germany. I doubt it even did anything to me when you brought me back, so why would it do anything now?
C!Envy: *shakes his head* I don't know. *glances away pensively*
T!Ed: I'll be fine, I promise. *smiles faintly* Please, Ren, let me try...
C!Envy: *looks at him, fighting with himself* It is not as if I can stop you. I am your husband, not your parent or some such nonsense.
T!Ed: I know, but I don't want to worry you or anything... *fidgets nervously* I-I think I'll think about it for a while longer first.
C!Envy: I am going to worry not matter what. But I know you, and I know that you will never be satisfied until your curiosity is.
T!Ed: I just want to see, you know? And I won't go far if I do try, I promise.
C!Envy: *holds him tighter without really meaning to* You do not even know how to control it, though.
T!Ed: *rubs his back comfortingly, staying close* I'll figure it out. I remember a lot of the dimensions and places you took me too, so if I just keep one of them in mind, I should make it alright.
C!Envy: But you have to know how to feel your way there, and the right way to let it pull you in. It didn't matter when I was learning if I got stuck. I do not need food or water or light or anything, really. And I had all the time in the world if I got stuck. You are... you are still so human. It will sense that. I know it will.
T!Ed: I'll be alright, Ren, really. I've still got enough stones in me, I'm sure, to get by, and if I do get caught... well... I'm tough and I'm sure I can get myself out of it.
C!Envy: But I am not sure. I just got you back. We went through all that hell and now we are together and things are alright again. Now you just want to just gamble with it? To test it.
T!Ed: I'm not trying to gamble with it! I just want to try once, just to see if I can do it. If it goes wrong in any way, I'll never try again, I promise.
C!Envy: That's gambling!
T!Ed: ...Alright, it is! But only once, I swear!
C!Envy: ...You are insane.
C!Envy: Or else you just hate me.
T!Ed: I don't hate you! How could you think I hate you? I just spent the last hour or so trying to remember our wedding, so how could I..?
C!Envy: I don't think I meant it literally. *sighs* Look, I know you do not hate me. I guess I am still acclimating to trusting someone this wholly. I think it must be a human trait to take such risks with one's mortality, but to me it is just another way to risk losing you and I face enough of those as it is. *looks up at him* But you really want to, don't you?
T!Ed: I do. I really, really do. *frowns, biting his lip*
C!Envy: Then it is not as if I could try and stop you.
T!Ed: Alright... I will be safe, though. Really.
C!Envy: *fights with himself some more before finally letting out a breath* Okay.
T!Ed: *hugs him tightly* Please don't hate me for this.
C!Envy: *relaxes slightly into his arms* I cannot hate you for anything.
T!Ed: Thank you... *smiles faintly before blushing* I should probably go change soon... I don't want to ruin my wedding clothes. *grins lamely*
C!Envy: *nods once, trying not to think* You look good, though.
T!Ed: I do, but I don't want them to get muddy or messed up or anything. *shrugs*
C!Envy: ...Is there mud somewhere I am not aware of? *smiles a bit, kissing the back of his hand* Alright, come on. I will come with you.
T!Ed: ...What if I fall out here? Then there would be mud. All over me. And that's definitely not one of my kinks. *makes a face, squeezing the back of his hand, and starts heading inside*
C!Envy: *looks around them* What, into a plant pot? *chuckles, following and making for their rooms* And I never know what your kinks are anymore- there seem to be so many.
T!Ed: Close enough. *troops up the stairs and pushes the door to their room open* I'm a man of many interests, what can I say?
C!Envy: I feel so priveledged to be one of those interests. * smirks at him, sitting down on the daybed in the corner*
T!Ed: You should be, beautiful~ *throws open the door to his wardrobe and begins inspecting all of his clothing fastidiously*
C!Envy: *lounges across the daybed, watching* Says the one person I chose after over seven-hundred years of autonomy.
T!Ed: Well I'm just that good, you know? *takes out a white shirt, and a black and red embroidered vest* What about these? ...Red doesn't really match my eyes as well anymore, does it?
C!Envy: *shakes his head* It doesn't. I miss the gold- I always like when it starts coming back if you haven't eaten the stones in awhile.
T!Ed: The only problem with that is the tingling. I hate the tingling. Feels like all of my limbs are asleep. *makes a face and puts the vest back, finding something white and gold instead* Here, what about this one?
C!Envy: I know. I am not actually complaining. The grayish violet looks good on you, it is just... different. *nods* Mm, I like that one.
T!Ed: I know. I do miss the gold, too. The violet is nice and everything but just... not the same? *shrugs, setting aside both the shirt and vest* Now for pants~ *gleefully dives back into the wardrobe*
C!Envy: *sighs, fiddling with a lock of his own hair distractedly* You are a lunatic, you know that?
T!Ed: *pops back out of the wardrobe with a pair of black pants* I am not. *sticks his tongue out and strips down carefully, not wanting to ruin any of his wedding things, before starting to get dressed again*
C!Envy: *watches him quietly*
T!Ed: *folds the wedding things carefully and sets them on the bed, then throws his pants and shirt on, lacing up the vest, and raises his eyebrows at Ren with a faint grin* What?
C!Envy: What made you want to marry me?
T!Ed: I love you, that's why. *moves to sit beside him on the daybed* I meant what I said about you being the most wonderful and caring husband.
C!Envy: *laughs shortly* I don't even know what I'm doing. I am always afraid that I cannot take care of you the way you do me, because of, well... everything. You are so used to being close to other people.
T!Ed: You do fine. *leans down to kiss his temple, stroking his hair lightly* I appreciate everything that you do for me, and I don't see how I take care of you any differently than the other way around. *shrugs*
C!Envy: Maybe it is just in my head. It just keeps occurring to me how glaringly obvious it is that I have never been close to anyone before. *leans against him* I guess what I am trying to say here is that I am afraid that I am going to screw up again.
T!Ed: Even if you do, I wouldn't leave you. If I didn't after I died, I doubt I ever would. *smiles* Besides, I love being around you, You actually make me happy, imagine that. *grins teasingly*
C!Envy: Imagine that. *smiles back at him shyly* You... confuse me. I like it.
T!Ed: ...I think I confuse myself sometimes, really. *kisses him quickly, blushing* I don't know. You're just... everything I like.
C!Envy: *kisses back before he even realises it* How does that work? *laughs sheepishly* You like socially awkward and workaholic?
T!Ed: *laughs* I didn't even think of that, but I like distracting you from your papers at least~ *smirks faintly* You're dangerous, but you're still sweet and caring, especially to me, and I think that's what I like most.
C!Envy: Dangerous... I guess in a human perspective I am. Hm. Odd. I had never even thought about that, really. For a homunculus, I am remarkably passive. *leans his head on Ed's shoulder* I cannot get over this feeling of... touching someone. It is so strange. And to have it be a regular occurrance.
T!Ed: Well you're certainly dangerous when you're drunk. Don't think I forgot that time over the summer. *grins, kissing the top of his head and wrapping arms around him* That's one of the weird parts, I guess. I don't know, I guess I'm so used to actually being around people and touching them that it's weird not to.
C!Envy: You are human. Mostly. You need contact from others to survive. *laughs quietly* I may get over my fascination with watching you sleep in about eighty years or so...
T!Ed: ...I don't think I can be terribly interesting when I'm asleep. *laughs*
C!Envy: No, it's fascinating. Humans sleeping, I mean. I can sort of... drift. At the most. And I have never dreamt, I do not remember at all what it is like. I can tell when you are, though. You make little noises and your eyelids do this strange, fluttery thing.
T!Ed: You are so creepy! *ducks his head, blushing* I'm still surprised that I can sleep and dream like I can, though... Even after eating all of those stones. *shrugs* ...I don't say weird things in my sleep, do I?
C!Envy: *laughs* I guess I sort of am. And it doesn't surprise me. You still have most of your human habits. You don't speak, no. Should you?
T!Ed: No, I guess not... I know some people talk in their sleep, though, and I may have babbled a few times when I was crazy. I don't really remember.
C!Envy: Oh, yes. You did all the time back then. But I was not sure if you were sleeping, or just hallucinating and I was afraid to do anything to disturb you.
T!Ed: It was probably better to let me sleep. I remember when I woke up and tried to kill myself that one night on that spike... *shudders involuntarily*
C!Envy: Gods, I will never forget that. I really thought you would hate me when I stopped you.
T!Ed: I don't think I could ever hate you for stopping me doing something like that. *makes a face* And you saved me from turning myself into bits.
C!Envy: But back then you barely knew me. And before you say it, fucking me senseless routinely does not count.
T!Ed: You were still my friend back then, or at least as close to one as I would have at that time...
C!Envy: The attachment was not there, though. It was forming, but... not quite. I was utterly convinced you would leave.
T!Ed: I don't think I would have left, even if that attachment wasn't there. It wasn't like I had anywhere else to go, you know? If I had left and gone back, I probably would have been thrown in jail or an asylum.
C!Envy: ...You really do not remember much of this summer, do you? *concedes a bit* Okay, no. You probably would have gotten locked up. That much is true. You were violating your parole like anything.
T!Ed: A lot more than I did, but I'm sure I'm missing good chunks of it. *shrugs* It doesn't surprise me I would have run away from something like that. God, if I got locked up again I would go crazy... er. Heh...
C!Envy: ...Er*amused smirk* I will make sure you are not unless for some reason it is the only thing you need. Of course, over summer, there was still Alfons. He seemed intent on getting you back.
T!Ed: What, crazy or locked up? *blinks* Alfons and I seem alright now... I even managed to get a letter to him since he left. I don't know how it got through, I didn't really expect it to, but it did.
C!Envy: Locked up. Not that I can really imagine the reasoning behind that. *nods* I am glad. Things were so tense for so long, and then when you married me... you should have seen his face at the wedding.
T!Ed: ...You wouldn't actually do that to me, would you..? *balks, cringing a little* Yeah, I imagine...
C!Envy: Never. I think it would cause you more harm than good. Besides, that sort of thing is usually to protect other people, and we both already know that I am perfectly capable of dealing with your knife habits. *smiles prettily*
T!Ed: Oh, good... No offense, but I don't think I could stand it if I found out you were the one that locked me up, should that happen... And it's not like I've gone out and hurt other people besides that one guy. Yet.
C!Envy: Sweetheart, we both know you are a homicidal maniac. And I run a contract killing agency. I do not really see any problem.
T!Ed: I forget this little tidbit sometimes, this is true. *smiles brightly*
C!Envy: You are so... sweet. And attractive. I do not usually think of serial killers being these things.
T!Ed: I guess I'm just special. *hums happily to himself* And how could I not be attractive~?
C!Envy: You are. In... may ways. *grins teasingly*
T!Ed: Oh, I already know this. *nods sagely*
T!Ed: ...But that doesn't mean you have to stop, just saying~
C!Envy: I was referring to your... specialness.
T!Ed: ...Now that's just cruel.
C!Envy: You expect less from me?
T!Ed: No, but still. We should talk about how pretty I am instead. *bats his eyelashes and tosses his hair, throwing in an extra girly giggle for good measure*
C!Envy: ...Oh my gods, I have married a woman.
T!Ed: ...When did I get tits? *looks down at his chest*
C!Envy: *rolls his eyes* You know what I mean.
T!Ed: Of course I do, schnooby-wooby bear. *smiles sweetly, ready to run if he has to*
C!Envy: Oh, look at the time. I have somewhere very far away to be. *makes as if to get up*
T!Ed: Hey! I was only kidding!
C!Envy: *sits back down, leaning to kiss him* I know.
T!Ed: *kisses back* I could always think of something less disgusting to call you, I suppose. What about sugar lumpkins schnookie pie? *trying hard not to crack up*
C!Envy: Sadist!
T!Ed: Am not!
C!Envy: ...Think about that really hard.
T!Ed: ...Thiiiiiiiiinking. ...Nope.
C!Envy: YOU HAVE FOUR-HUNDRED KNIVES!
T!Ed: Just because I have four-hundred knives and a penchant for tearing people open doesn't mean I'm a sadist!
C!Envy: I'm sorry, my IQ just dropped. What were we talking about?
T!Ed: ...You remember when I said I don't think I could ever hate you? Yeah, I think I may have to retract that statement, snuggle bunny luvykins.
C!Envy: *smiles sweetly* ...I hope you like the tinglies. I am confiscating the red stones.~
T!Ed: *narrows his eyes* ...You wouldn't dare.
C!Envy: Oh, I would.
T!Ed: You wouldn't.
C!Envy: I won't if you stop calling me those horrible things.
T!Ed: ... *gives him the biggest, saddest puppy eyes he can muster, complete with quivering bottom lip*
C!Envy: ...Eew?
T!Ed: ...Fine, I'll stop. *deadpan expression*
C!Envy: You're lying.
T!Ed: I am not.
C!Envy: Prove it.
T!Ed: ...How?
C!Envy: ...Oh, nevermind.
T!Ed: ...Wait, did you want me to fuck you or something? *blinks, genuinely confused*
C!Envy: ...What? Where did you get that from?
T!Ed: ...I don't know. *tilts his head, making a face* ...Oh well. I was thinking of going to get some tea and then maybe sliding down the banister on the other end of the castle. That staircase spirals up to the third floor so it should be fun~
C!Envy: ...Tea sounds good.
T!Ed: You don't want to banister slide with me?
C!Envy: Er...
T!Ed: ...Fine. I'll do it all by my lonesome. *smiles brightly and kisses his cheek, then stands* Tea~?
C!Envy: *gets up* Sure. And I will watch and call a medic when you fall off and damage yourself.
T!Ed: Nah. If I break a bone, though, just make sure it's set right. When I heal, I don't want it sticking out at an odd angle. *reaches for his hand*
C!Envy: *makes a face* Ugh. Try not to? *takes his hand*
T!Ed: I'll be careful~ *squeezes his hand, practically skipping out of the room*
When: 02/17/06
Rating: PG
Category: Fluffy Romance
Summary: Ren and Ed go off to the castle for their vacation. Ed tries to remember their wedding, there's some minor angst, and then utter ridiculousness.
T!Ed: *is wandering around outside in the arboretum dressed up in his clothing from the wedding, crown perched on his head, and hums the wedding march to himself, coming up on the wrong side of the pavillion from where he had actually walked, thinking he's got it right*
C!Envy: *comes up the stairs into the hallway outside the arboretum, glancing in and stopping to watch in a sort of morbid fascination*
T!Ed: *doesn't notice Ren and stops in the center of the pavillion, looking around with his brow furrowed, trying to remember*
C!Envy: *leans against the doorframe* We were facing the other way.
T!Ed: *jumps, startled* Oh! *glances at him, blushing* Oh, we were?
C!Envy: *smiles a rueful apology* Mmhm. The chairs were there, and we came in from the side door. *points to indicate*
T!Ed: Hmm... *turns to face the right direction, scrutinizing the door, then sighs* I still don't remember it...
C!Envy: *shifts away from the doorframe, going to him* Do not beat yourself up about it, pretty. Just give it time.
T!Ed: *frowns* I'm not... I mean, I just want to remember, you know? It was probably one of the most important days of my life, but I can't.
C!Envy: And you are worried about it, which might be why it is so difficult to bring back. *smiles sadly, reaching to put arms around him*
T!Ed: Yeah, I know... *leans against him* Maybe it'll come back on it's own, then, or I could always talk to the other people that were there.
C!Envy: Mmhm. *strokes his hair, watching over his shoulder the slow snowfall outside the glass* You already have spoken to Clara, correct? She should remember it well.
T!Ed: ...I don't think she would want to talk much after she finds out what we did to the cake. *giggles to himself* Though it seems so pointless I can remember something after the wedding and not the wedding itself.
C!Envy: *laughs, kissing his cheek* Well there is no need to tell her that. *shrugs* Something so familiar may just be easier to remember. *smirks a bit*
T!Ed: Aw, but her expression would be hilarious~ *gives him the puppy eyes and grins* That's probably true... And from what I remember, I've done it a lot. *blushes faintly*
C!Envy: Poor Clara. *grins back, laughing again* 'A lot' would be one term, yes...
T!Ed: *snuggles against him with a shrug* I was stupid when I was younger. About the only explaination I have for it.
C!Envy: *looks at him incredulously* Do you actually regret doing such things now?
T!Ed: Not with you! *sticks his tongue out* With being a whore or whatever, I mean. You know, back before I met you.
C!Envy: No, I know that's what you meant. You had better not regret it with me. *wrinkles his nose back at him teasingly before sobering a bit* I guess, before- before you died, you never seemed to regret it. It just seemed to be part of you. But... it seems almost as if that was a different lifetime for you.
T!Ed: I still feel like what happened to me before I died happened to someone else. I can remember now, but it still feels... strange. *shrugs* It didn't seem to happen to me the other times, I died, though. But then I wasn't brought back those times either. I feel sorry for the person I was, you know? That he did such things, even though I'm not much better...
C!Envy: *nods once, thinking quietly for a little while* I never pitied you, I guess I have no patience for pity. But it saddens me, knowing what you had to go through just to survive. You are so young, I often forget that. And I disagree- I believe you have actually matured in some ways since you died. You are better. *smiles sheepishly* Well, that and you will never need to worry about such things as prostitution or anything again for money.
T!Ed: *laughs ligthly* You're just biased because I'm part homunculus. *grins faintly and kisses his cheek quickly* I'm glad that I don't have to return to any of that or that you never pitied me... It probably wouldn't have done me any good at the time. Still, though... How I was before I died just seems like... the other boy. Someone I knew before they just left. It's still really weird thinking that was me actually doing all of those things and not someone else, even though I don't have to do them anymore.
C!Envy: It is really odd, isn't it? *smiles at the kiss, holding him close* You were quite different, but you are still my Edward. Sometimes I feel as if none of it ever happened.
T!Ed: *presses closer happily* I'm glad, then... I know I've changed, but hopefully not by too much.
C!Envy: *shakes his head, smiling contentedly* No, not too much. I think it feels like more to you, probably because of the memories. But to me, you are just the same, only perhaps a bit more honest about your emotions and such.
T!Ed: That's probably a step up at least, though, right? *grins briefly* Everyone else has said I've been about the same too. I do wonder sometimes if they're just saying that to make me feel better, but... if they are, there's not much I can do about it. *shrugs*
C!Envy: No, I don't think so. At least, Clara would be honest. I cannot imaging Vengeance ever doing anything so silly, either. Who else did you talk to? *grins back* Besides, it's the truth. Personally, I am just enjoying having you back with me.
T!Ed: Well Alfons, of course, but he seemed fine with me the way I was. The dipshit, but that's, you know, the dipshit. *snerks faintly* There was also another Alphonse, some jerk who I remember used to beat me up regularly... *rolls his eyes* And - and Hei...
C!Envy: *laughs softly til he mentions Hei* ...You have spoken to him recently?
T!Ed: I haven't talked to him since the day after I died... *shakes his head* He, um, didn't seem very well...
C!Envy: *bites his lip, nodding slowly* I have heard nothing of him since I have been back.
T!Ed: I don't know where he went either... At the time, I - I don't think I really cared. I couldn't remember him at all and he did seem alright physically, so... I don't know. I just hope he's okay.
C!Envy: Do you remember much about him now?
T!Ed: That he's my friend and we used to drink a lot together. And that he was there when I died, obviously.
C!Envy: *frowns faintly, staring at the falling snow without really seeing it* He was one of your best friends.
T!Ed: Do you think he hates me because I couldn't remember him? *bites his lip, shifting nervously*
C!Envy: *shakes his head* No, I doubt it. He saw what really happened. I do not think there is any way he could hold that against you. It's me he hates.
T!Ed: I'm sorry... *reaches for his hand* When we go back, if I can find him, maybe I can talk to him or something...
C!Envy: No, no. I deserve it. *laces their fingers with a distracted smile* I am quite willing to admit when I have done wrong and deserve such action taken against me. But you should still talk to him, just for yourself.
T!Ed: *squeezes his hand, smiling a little* I will... It doesn't seem like I have very many friends so I may as well not lose the few I do, you know? *shudders* I'm still so grateful I can't remember what happened when I died...
C!Envy: Better to have a few real ones than a lot of fake ones. *hugs him tighter, nuzzling his cheek comfortingly* It was... unpleasant.
T!Ed: So I've been told... *presses closer unconsciously, arms wrapped around him*
C!Envy: *murmuring against his ear, running a hand soothingly over his back* I love you so, so much. I am so grateful I got you back, it is more than I deserve.
T!Ed: *nuzzles against his cheek, eyes closed* You deserve a lot, beautiful. I'm so glad that I get to spend more time with you now.
C!Envy: *glows faintly with a small, self-conscious laugh* You flatter me. I am glad, as well.
T!Ed: *chuckles and pokes him lightly in the side* You deserve to be flattered. You're the most wonderful, caring, sweet husband in the world~ *grins, kissing him softly*
C!Envy: *laughs just before kissing back, trying not to blush* And you are the most wonderful, forgiving. *grins* So are you impressed by your castle? Or had you remembered it well enough already?
T!Ed: *blushes* Incredibly impressed, actually. I remembered some of it but not much until I got here. *smiles shyly* It's absolutely wonderful, and I can't believe you got something like this for me...
C!Envy: *laughs, enjoying his reaction* It was the least I could do. ...And I mean that literally. You will probably never know the extent of your aquired wealth through marrying me. *grins haughtily* Though I am glad you like it. Do you remember the rose garden?
T!Ed: ...No, I probably won't ever know it. And I still feel bad that you would spend this much on me! You spoil me, you do. *blushes more, ducking his head with a laugh* Faintly... We could go find it~?
C!Envy: Oh, shush. I am ridiculously wealthy and you are my husband. I am allowed to dote. And spoil. And lavish. *ruffles fingers through his hair playfully* Sure, though it will be under who knows how much snow this time of year.
T!Ed: Well... then dote and spoil and lavish away. *bats at his hands, grinning* Oh, that's right...
C!Envy: *sniffs primly* I think I will, thank you.~ *laughs and rolls his eyes* Looked out the windows lately? *points at the other three quarters of the room, which is entirely glass, with a smug grin*
T!Ed: ...I was distracted with recreating the wedding, thank you very much. I even got dressed up for it and everything~ *sniffs aloofily*
C!Envy: ...I noticed. *glances over him amusedly* You seem to remember what you were wearing alright.
T!Ed: It was the only thing that looked remotely wedding-ish in my closet here. The rest of my clothing is nice, too, though~
C!Envy: Yes, I think you were doing well in singlehandedly financing the seamstresses of the local village. *smiles teasingly*
T!Ed: I like my clothes, what can I say. *smiles smugly*
C!Envy: *rolls his eyes* We are going to need more closet space.
T!Ed: *smiles sweetly* You could always get me another castle for wardrobe purposes.
C!Envy: I will look into it.
T!Ed: I was kidding, you know.
C!Envy: So was I. *tries not to smirk*
T!Ed: ...You, sir, are an insufferable asshole. *grins*
C!Envy: *smiles pretty* Seven centuries of practice, my dear.
T!Ed: So I've noticed, lovely. *smirks* You know, there was something I was wondering, though...
C!Envy: What's that?
T!Ed: How did you find this dimension in the first place? Was it just through all of the switching you do?
C!Envy: Mmhm. I cannot really explain the theory behind the dimensional shifts... *thinks a moment* The easiest way to say it is that I just sort of... let myself drift and there are little, um... blips, I guess. Little things I sense when I am near a dimension and then I let it pull me in. If I know which one it is, it is easy to direct my ending location. ...And that all happens in about two and a half seconds.
T!Ed: Hmm... *nods, thinking for a moment* Is it easy to do all of that? I mean, I know you've done it for a few hundred years already, but when you started out was it? The whole letting yourself drift thing. I wouldn't mind trying it if I could...
C!Envy: *shakes his head* Oh, no. At first, I had to constantly will myself from panicking and getting stuck. And it was uncomfortable. The sensation is so strange- you should know just from coming with me.
T!Ed: Yeah, I know... *shrugs* What if I try changing dimensions when you start off, though? Just to see if I could. If I do that, maybe it'll be easier when I start out and then I can just start changing them on my own or something...
C!Envy: *frowns* I don't know... It could be very dangerous for you. You are still mostly human. The Gate, it could... *bites his lip*
T!Ed: Could what? *shrugs* I've been through it before, and maybe it won't notice me anymore, what with being part homunculus.
C!Envy: *shakes his head* I do not trust it. The whole idea worries me.
T!Ed: I'll be fine, though. *looks at him, biting his lip* What can it do to me now?
C!Envy: Everything? Take you, use you, take parts of you again, or just erase you completely! This is the Gate, Edward! It dictates everything here- I am lucky it even lets me pass the way it does. *fidgeting with his hands* I do not want to lose you again for something so stupid and easy to avoid.
T!Ed: *cringes faintly, glancing at him* But I've gotten by it before without it doing anything to me... It only took parts from me because I did stupid things when I was kid, and all it did the second time was send me to Germany. I doubt it even did anything to me when you brought me back, so why would it do anything now?
C!Envy: *shakes his head* I don't know. *glances away pensively*
T!Ed: I'll be fine, I promise. *smiles faintly* Please, Ren, let me try...
C!Envy: *looks at him, fighting with himself* It is not as if I can stop you. I am your husband, not your parent or some such nonsense.
T!Ed: I know, but I don't want to worry you or anything... *fidgets nervously* I-I think I'll think about it for a while longer first.
C!Envy: I am going to worry not matter what. But I know you, and I know that you will never be satisfied until your curiosity is.
T!Ed: I just want to see, you know? And I won't go far if I do try, I promise.
C!Envy: *holds him tighter without really meaning to* You do not even know how to control it, though.
T!Ed: *rubs his back comfortingly, staying close* I'll figure it out. I remember a lot of the dimensions and places you took me too, so if I just keep one of them in mind, I should make it alright.
C!Envy: But you have to know how to feel your way there, and the right way to let it pull you in. It didn't matter when I was learning if I got stuck. I do not need food or water or light or anything, really. And I had all the time in the world if I got stuck. You are... you are still so human. It will sense that. I know it will.
T!Ed: I'll be alright, Ren, really. I've still got enough stones in me, I'm sure, to get by, and if I do get caught... well... I'm tough and I'm sure I can get myself out of it.
C!Envy: But I am not sure. I just got you back. We went through all that hell and now we are together and things are alright again. Now you just want to just gamble with it? To test it.
T!Ed: I'm not trying to gamble with it! I just want to try once, just to see if I can do it. If it goes wrong in any way, I'll never try again, I promise.
C!Envy: That's gambling!
T!Ed: ...Alright, it is! But only once, I swear!
C!Envy: ...You are insane.
C!Envy: Or else you just hate me.
T!Ed: I don't hate you! How could you think I hate you? I just spent the last hour or so trying to remember our wedding, so how could I..?
C!Envy: I don't think I meant it literally. *sighs* Look, I know you do not hate me. I guess I am still acclimating to trusting someone this wholly. I think it must be a human trait to take such risks with one's mortality, but to me it is just another way to risk losing you and I face enough of those as it is. *looks up at him* But you really want to, don't you?
T!Ed: I do. I really, really do. *frowns, biting his lip*
C!Envy: Then it is not as if I could try and stop you.
T!Ed: Alright... I will be safe, though. Really.
C!Envy: *fights with himself some more before finally letting out a breath* Okay.
T!Ed: *hugs him tightly* Please don't hate me for this.
C!Envy: *relaxes slightly into his arms* I cannot hate you for anything.
T!Ed: Thank you... *smiles faintly before blushing* I should probably go change soon... I don't want to ruin my wedding clothes. *grins lamely*
C!Envy: *nods once, trying not to think* You look good, though.
T!Ed: I do, but I don't want them to get muddy or messed up or anything. *shrugs*
C!Envy: ...Is there mud somewhere I am not aware of? *smiles a bit, kissing the back of his hand* Alright, come on. I will come with you.
T!Ed: ...What if I fall out here? Then there would be mud. All over me. And that's definitely not one of my kinks. *makes a face, squeezing the back of his hand, and starts heading inside*
C!Envy: *looks around them* What, into a plant pot? *chuckles, following and making for their rooms* And I never know what your kinks are anymore- there seem to be so many.
T!Ed: Close enough. *troops up the stairs and pushes the door to their room open* I'm a man of many interests, what can I say?
C!Envy: I feel so priveledged to be one of those interests. * smirks at him, sitting down on the daybed in the corner*
T!Ed: You should be, beautiful~ *throws open the door to his wardrobe and begins inspecting all of his clothing fastidiously*
C!Envy: *lounges across the daybed, watching* Says the one person I chose after over seven-hundred years of autonomy.
T!Ed: Well I'm just that good, you know? *takes out a white shirt, and a black and red embroidered vest* What about these? ...Red doesn't really match my eyes as well anymore, does it?
C!Envy: *shakes his head* It doesn't. I miss the gold- I always like when it starts coming back if you haven't eaten the stones in awhile.
T!Ed: The only problem with that is the tingling. I hate the tingling. Feels like all of my limbs are asleep. *makes a face and puts the vest back, finding something white and gold instead* Here, what about this one?
C!Envy: I know. I am not actually complaining. The grayish violet looks good on you, it is just... different. *nods* Mm, I like that one.
T!Ed: I know. I do miss the gold, too. The violet is nice and everything but just... not the same? *shrugs, setting aside both the shirt and vest* Now for pants~ *gleefully dives back into the wardrobe*
C!Envy: *sighs, fiddling with a lock of his own hair distractedly* You are a lunatic, you know that?
T!Ed: *pops back out of the wardrobe with a pair of black pants* I am not. *sticks his tongue out and strips down carefully, not wanting to ruin any of his wedding things, before starting to get dressed again*
C!Envy: *watches him quietly*
T!Ed: *folds the wedding things carefully and sets them on the bed, then throws his pants and shirt on, lacing up the vest, and raises his eyebrows at Ren with a faint grin* What?
C!Envy: What made you want to marry me?
T!Ed: I love you, that's why. *moves to sit beside him on the daybed* I meant what I said about you being the most wonderful and caring husband.
C!Envy: *laughs shortly* I don't even know what I'm doing. I am always afraid that I cannot take care of you the way you do me, because of, well... everything. You are so used to being close to other people.
T!Ed: You do fine. *leans down to kiss his temple, stroking his hair lightly* I appreciate everything that you do for me, and I don't see how I take care of you any differently than the other way around. *shrugs*
C!Envy: Maybe it is just in my head. It just keeps occurring to me how glaringly obvious it is that I have never been close to anyone before. *leans against him* I guess what I am trying to say here is that I am afraid that I am going to screw up again.
T!Ed: Even if you do, I wouldn't leave you. If I didn't after I died, I doubt I ever would. *smiles* Besides, I love being around you, You actually make me happy, imagine that. *grins teasingly*
C!Envy: Imagine that. *smiles back at him shyly* You... confuse me. I like it.
T!Ed: ...I think I confuse myself sometimes, really. *kisses him quickly, blushing* I don't know. You're just... everything I like.
C!Envy: *kisses back before he even realises it* How does that work? *laughs sheepishly* You like socially awkward and workaholic?
T!Ed: *laughs* I didn't even think of that, but I like distracting you from your papers at least~ *smirks faintly* You're dangerous, but you're still sweet and caring, especially to me, and I think that's what I like most.
C!Envy: Dangerous... I guess in a human perspective I am. Hm. Odd. I had never even thought about that, really. For a homunculus, I am remarkably passive. *leans his head on Ed's shoulder* I cannot get over this feeling of... touching someone. It is so strange. And to have it be a regular occurrance.
T!Ed: Well you're certainly dangerous when you're drunk. Don't think I forgot that time over the summer. *grins, kissing the top of his head and wrapping arms around him* That's one of the weird parts, I guess. I don't know, I guess I'm so used to actually being around people and touching them that it's weird not to.
C!Envy: You are human. Mostly. You need contact from others to survive. *laughs quietly* I may get over my fascination with watching you sleep in about eighty years or so...
T!Ed: ...I don't think I can be terribly interesting when I'm asleep. *laughs*
C!Envy: No, it's fascinating. Humans sleeping, I mean. I can sort of... drift. At the most. And I have never dreamt, I do not remember at all what it is like. I can tell when you are, though. You make little noises and your eyelids do this strange, fluttery thing.
T!Ed: You are so creepy! *ducks his head, blushing* I'm still surprised that I can sleep and dream like I can, though... Even after eating all of those stones. *shrugs* ...I don't say weird things in my sleep, do I?
C!Envy: *laughs* I guess I sort of am. And it doesn't surprise me. You still have most of your human habits. You don't speak, no. Should you?
T!Ed: No, I guess not... I know some people talk in their sleep, though, and I may have babbled a few times when I was crazy. I don't really remember.
C!Envy: Oh, yes. You did all the time back then. But I was not sure if you were sleeping, or just hallucinating and I was afraid to do anything to disturb you.
T!Ed: It was probably better to let me sleep. I remember when I woke up and tried to kill myself that one night on that spike... *shudders involuntarily*
C!Envy: Gods, I will never forget that. I really thought you would hate me when I stopped you.
T!Ed: I don't think I could ever hate you for stopping me doing something like that. *makes a face* And you saved me from turning myself into bits.
C!Envy: But back then you barely knew me. And before you say it, fucking me senseless routinely does not count.
T!Ed: You were still my friend back then, or at least as close to one as I would have at that time...
C!Envy: The attachment was not there, though. It was forming, but... not quite. I was utterly convinced you would leave.
T!Ed: I don't think I would have left, even if that attachment wasn't there. It wasn't like I had anywhere else to go, you know? If I had left and gone back, I probably would have been thrown in jail or an asylum.
C!Envy: ...You really do not remember much of this summer, do you? *concedes a bit* Okay, no. You probably would have gotten locked up. That much is true. You were violating your parole like anything.
T!Ed: A lot more than I did, but I'm sure I'm missing good chunks of it. *shrugs* It doesn't surprise me I would have run away from something like that. God, if I got locked up again I would go crazy... er. Heh...
C!Envy: ...Er*amused smirk* I will make sure you are not unless for some reason it is the only thing you need. Of course, over summer, there was still Alfons. He seemed intent on getting you back.
T!Ed: What, crazy or locked up? *blinks* Alfons and I seem alright now... I even managed to get a letter to him since he left. I don't know how it got through, I didn't really expect it to, but it did.
C!Envy: Locked up. Not that I can really imagine the reasoning behind that. *nods* I am glad. Things were so tense for so long, and then when you married me... you should have seen his face at the wedding.
T!Ed: ...You wouldn't actually do that to me, would you..? *balks, cringing a little* Yeah, I imagine...
C!Envy: Never. I think it would cause you more harm than good. Besides, that sort of thing is usually to protect other people, and we both already know that I am perfectly capable of dealing with your knife habits. *smiles prettily*
T!Ed: Oh, good... No offense, but I don't think I could stand it if I found out you were the one that locked me up, should that happen... And it's not like I've gone out and hurt other people besides that one guy. Yet.
C!Envy: Sweetheart, we both know you are a homicidal maniac. And I run a contract killing agency. I do not really see any problem.
T!Ed: I forget this little tidbit sometimes, this is true. *smiles brightly*
C!Envy: You are so... sweet. And attractive. I do not usually think of serial killers being these things.
T!Ed: I guess I'm just special. *hums happily to himself* And how could I not be attractive~?
C!Envy: You are. In... may ways. *grins teasingly*
T!Ed: Oh, I already know this. *nods sagely*
T!Ed: ...But that doesn't mean you have to stop, just saying~
C!Envy: I was referring to your... specialness.
T!Ed: ...Now that's just cruel.
C!Envy: You expect less from me?
T!Ed: No, but still. We should talk about how pretty I am instead. *bats his eyelashes and tosses his hair, throwing in an extra girly giggle for good measure*
C!Envy: ...Oh my gods, I have married a woman.
T!Ed: ...When did I get tits? *looks down at his chest*
C!Envy: *rolls his eyes* You know what I mean.
T!Ed: Of course I do, schnooby-wooby bear. *smiles sweetly, ready to run if he has to*
C!Envy: Oh, look at the time. I have somewhere very far away to be. *makes as if to get up*
T!Ed: Hey! I was only kidding!
C!Envy: *sits back down, leaning to kiss him* I know.
T!Ed: *kisses back* I could always think of something less disgusting to call you, I suppose. What about sugar lumpkins schnookie pie? *trying hard not to crack up*
C!Envy: Sadist!
T!Ed: Am not!
C!Envy: ...Think about that really hard.
T!Ed: ...Thiiiiiiiiinking. ...Nope.
C!Envy: YOU HAVE FOUR-HUNDRED KNIVES!
T!Ed: Just because I have four-hundred knives and a penchant for tearing people open doesn't mean I'm a sadist!
C!Envy: I'm sorry, my IQ just dropped. What were we talking about?
T!Ed: ...You remember when I said I don't think I could ever hate you? Yeah, I think I may have to retract that statement, snuggle bunny luvykins.
C!Envy: *smiles sweetly* ...I hope you like the tinglies. I am confiscating the red stones.~
T!Ed: *narrows his eyes* ...You wouldn't dare.
C!Envy: Oh, I would.
T!Ed: You wouldn't.
C!Envy: I won't if you stop calling me those horrible things.
T!Ed: ... *gives him the biggest, saddest puppy eyes he can muster, complete with quivering bottom lip*
C!Envy: ...Eew?
T!Ed: ...Fine, I'll stop. *deadpan expression*
C!Envy: You're lying.
T!Ed: I am not.
C!Envy: Prove it.
T!Ed: ...How?
C!Envy: ...Oh, nevermind.
T!Ed: ...Wait, did you want me to fuck you or something? *blinks, genuinely confused*
C!Envy: ...What? Where did you get that from?
T!Ed: ...I don't know. *tilts his head, making a face* ...Oh well. I was thinking of going to get some tea and then maybe sliding down the banister on the other end of the castle. That staircase spirals up to the third floor so it should be fun~
C!Envy: ...Tea sounds good.
T!Ed: You don't want to banister slide with me?
C!Envy: Er...
T!Ed: ...Fine. I'll do it all by my lonesome. *smiles brightly and kisses his cheek, then stands* Tea~?
C!Envy: *gets up* Sure. And I will watch and call a medic when you fall off and damage yourself.
T!Ed: Nah. If I break a bone, though, just make sure it's set right. When I heal, I don't want it sticking out at an odd angle. *reaches for his hand*
C!Envy: *makes a face* Ugh. Try not to? *takes his hand*
T!Ed: I'll be careful~ *squeezes his hand, practically skipping out of the room*