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So, as for one of the last days of summer, I bailed on friends and did spring cleaning all within my room. I loved it. I felt productive for once and it was nice to have a day just to myself. I listened to a lot of Coldplay (as you already know) and rumaged through my drawers to only find things that seriously reminded me of last year. I found soo many notes between Mallory and I. I miss her so much. Its been quite a long time without her around to make me laugh and reassure my confidence. I honestly don't know how I'm going to make it through this year without her. Its hard to think things will never be the same between us.
I found hold Timmy stuff too. Pictures, notes on church sermons, notes about him, and even a gift I was going to give him before the whole Matt-ordeal thing happened. l'll always have a special place in my heart for him.
I found some notes (the ones I didn't rip up into pieces) that I used to leave on the mirrors for Charity when she lived with us.
And the FAT ISN'T FUNNY article we all used to get such a kick out of.
Upon surprise, I found the single letter Zack ever wrote me, claiming how he'll always be there for me and signing it,I'll love you forever.
Haven't heard from him since.
I found tons and tons of old pictures from middle school, and Mexico, and old model shoots, and camps, and a picture of my dad when he was about three (potentially my favorite treasure to come upon all day).
I can't believe how different everything was last year. I have to admit, I cried more than once today, over more than one thing. I just feel like taking a long bubble bath and convincing myself this year will be okay with my boyfriend 6 hours away from me, my best friend in the navy, without Amelia by my side at school, and without Mallory to text or call between school hours anymore.
I found hold Timmy stuff too. Pictures, notes on church sermons, notes about him, and even a gift I was going to give him before the whole Matt-ordeal thing happened. l'll always have a special place in my heart for him.
I found some notes (the ones I didn't rip up into pieces) that I used to leave on the mirrors for Charity when she lived with us.
And the FAT ISN'T FUNNY article we all used to get such a kick out of.
Upon surprise, I found the single letter Zack ever wrote me, claiming how he'll always be there for me and signing it,I'll love you forever.
Haven't heard from him since.
I found tons and tons of old pictures from middle school, and Mexico, and old model shoots, and camps, and a picture of my dad when he was about three (potentially my favorite treasure to come upon all day).
I can't believe how different everything was last year. I have to admit, I cried more than once today, over more than one thing. I just feel like taking a long bubble bath and convincing myself this year will be okay with my boyfriend 6 hours away from me, my best friend in the navy, without Amelia by my side at school, and without Mallory to text or call between school hours anymore.