I don't want you to be alone, down there to be alone

[omg___itslauren]

Build your own television receiver. Staying home can't be that bad for me. Because I'm not scared. But I'd like some extra spare time.. easily earn me big money. I'm a modern girl but I fold in half so easily when I put myself in the picture of success. I could learn world trade or try to map the ocean. When you're dead in hospitals and freeways, when you're dead in resting homes and clinics. When you're dead it must be nice to finish when you're dead. I've had it with you and Mexico can fucking wait. And all of those french films about trains. Cause I'm not scared, but I'd like some extra time. I'm not scared but the bills keep changing colors. When you're dead in hospitals and freeways, when you're dead in dress shirts and neckties.. when you're dead in apartments and on beaches, when you're dead. They say California is a recipe for a black hole. And I say I've got my best shoes on, I'm ready to go. These are times that can't be weathered and we have never been back there since then.

I feel and look like death.. I'm so pissed at whoever got me sick