Yes, Haas, I still have a LJ...
This weekend has been pretty sweet.
Thursday night Haas, Mandee and I went to Flat Top and watched some Queer as Folk. It was a good time.
Friday morning I went to breakfast. It was the biggest breakfast club meeting i've ever been to. 13 people were there. It was really fun. Josh told us about this dream he had the night before. It was pretty cool. He had written it all down and it was like, a whole page front and back plus some in the margins. What a nerd. I love it. Then Haas and I went back to his house and called Mandee and we watched a few more episodes of QueeF at his house. His diva bitch dog puked and kept stepping on my boobs. But eventually we all had to disband because I had to take my brother to wrestling practice and Mandee had a voice lesson. So we got back together at about 6:30 with Josh to go to Peoria to see the All-State Jazz choir because Cameron was in it. It was sooooo good. Haas and I were rocking out. We came up with the idea of screamo scatting. We thought it was hilarious but no one else but Josh did. Ben didn't even get it. I think maybe it was that it was late and everything was funny, but everytime I did it, Haas DIED of laughter. We're totally the coolest kids in town. After the concert, some drama was going down. It was INSANE. Atleast 6 topics of drama developed in the like, 3 hours I was there. Not counting the drama that had started beforehand. But all in all I had a lot of fun and it was so worth going. On the way home, Haas, Josh and I had a really good talk. I guess I just needed someone to talk to, but I some of the things they were saying just made so much sense and I realized I really need to sit down and talk to this certain person that has been causing me a bunch of stress for a long time now. My personal life is such a mess and I don't even know what to do to begin to...fix it... or...make me have one...
anyway
Today, I had my first acting lesson at the coffeehouse. I'm glad that I know atleast 6 or 7 people in it already. There's Haas, Shelby, Tyler, Dylan and his little sister (I can never remember her name but I like her), Brady and some random girls from summer theatre camp that I recognize. I really like it. It really think it might help me improve if I take it seriously enough. My mom said that I better be getting like, professional jobs out of this for what it's "costing her". Freaking, I broke it down, and it's only $5 an hour. So suck my cack.
After acting, we went upstairs and had lunch (Thanks again, Haas!). I love it because the coffeehouse is all vegetarian!!! It's so great. Then Haas and I pretty much hung around downtown uptown Normal until like, 5, Josh called us and we went to Bing's with him and Jessi. Haas kept like, freaking out because the food he got was so spicy. Then Haas had to go do the guy/girl dance, so Jessi, Josh and I wanted ice cream, so we went to mejier, because I had a coupon, and got some. Then went to the mall and ate it. We hung out there for a while, then I went to Puddin's house where Mandee and Ben were, and played one song on guitar hero, had a little talk with Mandee. Then went home at 10:30 because I got home at 1 o clock yesterday and that was my "punishment".
Musical auditions are in a week. I think it would be so amazing to get a part, and I'm going to deffinatly try my hardest, but in all reality, you can't get past Robbie and her favorites. I'm not really nervous, though i know i'm not prepared well enough yet.
SOS is going good, but I'm kind of already getting sick of my play. It's like, not actable. It's basically a bunch of bad and inside jokes stringed together into a bad plot. Plus I don't really do anything. Probley because Brian is going through blocking now, but when we start doing more run-thru's, I'll have more creative input. I always do. lol. I think people will think it's funny, but it's not really a good play. But then again, it's SOS, when are the plays ever any good? Freaking, except for mine that I'm writing for next year. It's going to be goooood.
Life is basically just blending all together right now I don't really feel like doing much of anything except talking to my friends. They're basically what's keeping me going now. Mandee is spending a whole lot of time with Puddin', so I feel like we're not as close as we used to be, tho we still hang out, just not ever just us. And I've told her I refuse to hang out with just her and puddin' together. It's the most akward and angering thing ever. Because whenever I try to talk to Mandee, like, have a ligit conversations, Puddin' gets all jealous or possessive and tries to like, physically take Mandee away from me. It's getting old realllly fast. Among the fact that he like, verbally abuses her, I can't stand listening to him be such a little bitch to her. Like, he calls her stupid all the time and says some of the stupidest things i've ever heard out of someone's mouth. Especially when directed at someone he says he loves. I don't want to sound jealous or like, the hateful best friend, but Puddin is really not good for her, and i feel like she just likes the idea of having a boyfriend and a guy that pays a lot (if not too much) attention to her. And i understand that he has his insecurities too, but he goes about them in the absolute WRONG way. There is almost no excuse. And I'm not even the only person who sees it. Actually, everyone does.
And Mandee still tells me everything about her and puddin', atleast she says she has, even some things she probley shouldn't tell me, but it just takes a week or 2 to get to me.
Basically all in all, I don't want to say that Mandee should dump him, but she deserves someone who will treat her with respect, give her space, not be reclace with his and her lives, not be jealous of all her friends and isn't so insecure with himself that he needs a girlfriend to rely on and bring down.
Thursday night Haas, Mandee and I went to Flat Top and watched some Queer as Folk. It was a good time.
Friday morning I went to breakfast. It was the biggest breakfast club meeting i've ever been to. 13 people were there. It was really fun. Josh told us about this dream he had the night before. It was pretty cool. He had written it all down and it was like, a whole page front and back plus some in the margins. What a nerd. I love it. Then Haas and I went back to his house and called Mandee and we watched a few more episodes of QueeF at his house. His diva bitch dog puked and kept stepping on my boobs. But eventually we all had to disband because I had to take my brother to wrestling practice and Mandee had a voice lesson. So we got back together at about 6:30 with Josh to go to Peoria to see the All-State Jazz choir because Cameron was in it. It was sooooo good. Haas and I were rocking out. We came up with the idea of screamo scatting. We thought it was hilarious but no one else but Josh did. Ben didn't even get it. I think maybe it was that it was late and everything was funny, but everytime I did it, Haas DIED of laughter. We're totally the coolest kids in town. After the concert, some drama was going down. It was INSANE. Atleast 6 topics of drama developed in the like, 3 hours I was there. Not counting the drama that had started beforehand. But all in all I had a lot of fun and it was so worth going. On the way home, Haas, Josh and I had a really good talk. I guess I just needed someone to talk to, but I some of the things they were saying just made so much sense and I realized I really need to sit down and talk to this certain person that has been causing me a bunch of stress for a long time now. My personal life is such a mess and I don't even know what to do to begin to...fix it... or...make me have one...
anyway
Today, I had my first acting lesson at the coffeehouse. I'm glad that I know atleast 6 or 7 people in it already. There's Haas, Shelby, Tyler, Dylan and his little sister (I can never remember her name but I like her), Brady and some random girls from summer theatre camp that I recognize. I really like it. It really think it might help me improve if I take it seriously enough. My mom said that I better be getting like, professional jobs out of this for what it's "costing her". Freaking, I broke it down, and it's only $5 an hour. So suck my cack.
After acting, we went upstairs and had lunch (Thanks again, Haas!). I love it because the coffeehouse is all vegetarian!!! It's so great. Then Haas and I pretty much hung around downtown uptown Normal until like, 5, Josh called us and we went to Bing's with him and Jessi. Haas kept like, freaking out because the food he got was so spicy. Then Haas had to go do the guy/girl dance, so Jessi, Josh and I wanted ice cream, so we went to mejier, because I had a coupon, and got some. Then went to the mall and ate it. We hung out there for a while, then I went to Puddin's house where Mandee and Ben were, and played one song on guitar hero, had a little talk with Mandee. Then went home at 10:30 because I got home at 1 o clock yesterday and that was my "punishment".
Musical auditions are in a week. I think it would be so amazing to get a part, and I'm going to deffinatly try my hardest, but in all reality, you can't get past Robbie and her favorites. I'm not really nervous, though i know i'm not prepared well enough yet.
SOS is going good, but I'm kind of already getting sick of my play. It's like, not actable. It's basically a bunch of bad and inside jokes stringed together into a bad plot. Plus I don't really do anything. Probley because Brian is going through blocking now, but when we start doing more run-thru's, I'll have more creative input. I always do. lol. I think people will think it's funny, but it's not really a good play. But then again, it's SOS, when are the plays ever any good? Freaking, except for mine that I'm writing for next year. It's going to be goooood.
Life is basically just blending all together right now I don't really feel like doing much of anything except talking to my friends. They're basically what's keeping me going now. Mandee is spending a whole lot of time with Puddin', so I feel like we're not as close as we used to be, tho we still hang out, just not ever just us. And I've told her I refuse to hang out with just her and puddin' together. It's the most akward and angering thing ever. Because whenever I try to talk to Mandee, like, have a ligit conversations, Puddin' gets all jealous or possessive and tries to like, physically take Mandee away from me. It's getting old realllly fast. Among the fact that he like, verbally abuses her, I can't stand listening to him be such a little bitch to her. Like, he calls her stupid all the time and says some of the stupidest things i've ever heard out of someone's mouth. Especially when directed at someone he says he loves. I don't want to sound jealous or like, the hateful best friend, but Puddin is really not good for her, and i feel like she just likes the idea of having a boyfriend and a guy that pays a lot (if not too much) attention to her. And i understand that he has his insecurities too, but he goes about them in the absolute WRONG way. There is almost no excuse. And I'm not even the only person who sees it. Actually, everyone does.
And Mandee still tells me everything about her and puddin', atleast she says she has, even some things she probley shouldn't tell me, but it just takes a week or 2 to get to me.
Basically all in all, I don't want to say that Mandee should dump him, but she deserves someone who will treat her with respect, give her space, not be reclace with his and her lives, not be jealous of all her friends and isn't so insecure with himself that he needs a girlfriend to rely on and bring down.