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this is the most anxious i've been in a very, VERY long time
i can't enjoy many moments because i am so stuck on the moments becoming memories.
"since you moved here have you felt depressed? but no, not depressed. but a... comfortable depressed? that is most definitely my favorite thing about living here."
i just don't know what to expect. i can't tell a mistake from a good thing.
you always thought i was the worst decision maker then? you'd criticize the shit out of me today.
"my heart is now a box, with imaginary thoughts. and i hate it for making mistakes."
but i can't even comprehend that three days from now, i'm going to forget everything. EVERY thing. and i am going to be the amazing, corrupt, careless kid that i was before.
i can't wait.
i can't enjoy many moments because i am so stuck on the moments becoming memories.
"since you moved here have you felt depressed? but no, not depressed. but a... comfortable depressed? that is most definitely my favorite thing about living here."
i just don't know what to expect. i can't tell a mistake from a good thing.
you always thought i was the worst decision maker then? you'd criticize the shit out of me today.
"my heart is now a box, with imaginary thoughts. and i hate it for making mistakes."
but i can't even comprehend that three days from now, i'm going to forget everything. EVERY thing. and i am going to be the amazing, corrupt, careless kid that i was before.
i can't wait.